> Shrouded in darkness;

~~Wednesday, April 11, 2007~~

4/11/2007 09:16:00 AM

Hi all I’m back again. So as you see, I will be going for my study leave in a week’s time and my desk is still filled with chunks and chunks of files, and clearing them up is like finding neverland.

As I looked back to the 3rd of April last year when I first stepped into the office, it felt as though time is slipping away quickly. A year has passed and I am still here. Do I consider this as an achievement or a humiliation? I mean, achievement as in managing to stay on despite the restlessness, and humiliation, as in refusing to leave when it is obvious to do so.

Then I say, life is always that contradicting. And I shall admit - one of the motivations that keeps me going to work should be that pay check at the end of the month. But for all other reasons, well, better than staying at home and accomplishing nothing. Perhaps I just want to shut my parents’ nagging or be useful to the family and the economic (haha, I’m such a benevolent human saint). And it’s definitely Jesus’ calling that I should endure all the phrases I’m experiencing. My friend, delight in all the trials and tribulations you are facing. For when you are weak, then you are strong.

Celine shared with me something – we always pray to God that He will make us stronger, strengthen our will and help us rise above our human weakness. In order for us to do that, He will of course let us face such trials – but that doesn’t mean he created them, he merely allows them to get into our lives so we can learn how to be stronger as we face them. I mean, have you seen someone who becomes a better person overnight? Being better is a long-term process shaped by the things life throws us with.

So when you face a BIG problem, don’t say “Oh my God! Why did You allow this to happen?!”

Instead we should (ah… I saw this quote from Mount Zion) say “Hey problem! I have a BIG God!”

What you say and think makes a HUGE difference you know?

... seen through it and moved on.

~~Friday, April 06, 2007~~

4/06/2007 08:45:00 PM

Something I just feel like sharing...

It was a gloomy Saturday afternoon, a flock of birds were having a great time searching for food and playing by the main road.

Out of sudden, a big truck sped by... and a sad thing happened.

Birds are rich in feelings too. Although this bird was already dead, her partner flew over to her immediately, just like a family member, unable to accept the cruel truth.

A while later, another car passed by from the other lane, causing the dead bird's body to whirl with the wind. The other bird thought that such movement meant that his spouse was alive. He flew to her again, calling deseprately for her.

He stayed beside her and yelled, 'Why are you not waking up????!!!!!'

Unfortunately, she was not able to hear him. He tried to lift her up.

He was, of course, unable to bear the burden of her weight. He flapped his wings again and again, but to no avail.

Although another bird told him it was useless, he did not want to give up. He tried his best to lift her up. He never gave up trying, encouraging her to get up and fly again.

He had finally utilised all of his energy, and still, there was no reaction from her.

The photograher who witnessed the scene could not shoot any longer. He was worried that the living bird would be knocked down by another car, and hence, he picked up the dead bird and placed it at the road side.

However, the bird that was living refused to leave. He continued to stay, as if crying with his singing.

The world needs a lot of love, compassion, and sympathy.

... seen through it and moved on.

~~Wednesday, April 04, 2007~~

4/04/2007 10:32:00 AM

I dunno why.

I had my breakfast just now.

And now, I’m HUNGRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYY with a big capital ‘H’!!!!!

I NEED A BIG BIG BIG BIG HAMBURGER!!!!!!!!

... seen through it and moved on.

~~Sunday, April 01, 2007~~

4/01/2007 10:58:00 PM

And you know what? I thought I was the only one who thought there were 5 Ninja turtles… until Shikin confessed her misconception on the same. So where did the fifth turtle (which in my imagination wears a yellow mask) come from?

A BIG BIG THANK YOU to Shikin and Nuraini for the greatest company at ljs, TMNT, and Cartell last evening. We walked around, window shopping with tired legs. Occasionally Shikin would baffle me with questions like whether or not I like that person’s hair or the cap he was wearing. Last evening was in no doubt a ladies’ night out – cos when have I ever been on a men’s night out?

We talked about almost everything. From school to work, work to school, then from Nuraini’s mum’s suggestion of getting her married to a Datuk to support her daughter’s wayward spending habits, to Shikin’s agonizing weekends of writing reflections for the school’s principal. We chatted about people we missed, and then, we talked about boys and men... why we could never understand them, and girlfriends who neglect their friends when they found boyfriends. Oh, how we dislike this kind of people.

Anyway, who says women can’t live without men? It should be the other way round. Adam was lonely. That was why God created Eve to perfect him.

And yes Shikin, I think I’m in love too… with the turtles, especially Leonardo.

Oh noooooooooooo……….. It’s Monday tomorrow.

... seen through it and moved on.