... seen through it and moved on.
Saturday, April 23, 2005
4/23/2005 10:41:00 PM
Today is a BIG FAT BLAST!!
Thoroughly enjoyed myself despite the fatigue now.. ^^,
Daa Daa Dee Dumm…
First of all, thanks a lot to my dear friend, Joyce, for your company. =)
Hee.. The both of us reached TM open plaza at 12 plus today when the Sly autograph session was supposed to be at 3pm. A little to my surprise, not many people were queuing up!! LOL I guess I was being too paranoid- Cos I remembered for the Zaizai and Edison one, I went to queue a day earlier lol. But for this Sly Sim, well, its not really crowded at all when I reached. Perhaps this is because the autograph session was strictly for those who bought his album at MJ and has the coupon to get his autograph.
Haha, I got Joyce a copy of Sly album so that she could get his autograph and queue up with me. Won’t wanna leave her alone!! >.< Bought the album for her hee.. Hey fren, just treat this as my early birthday gift okay? Anyway, good music are worth the support, especially local ones. ^^,
We joined in the queue at around 1pm and guess what? We are in the third row!! Third row!!! Woo hoo!! This is good news!! Its was really a test of patience waiting for 3pm to come but then, we were considered lucky as there was a shelter over us from the sunlight. It was not that hot, just a little humid.
However, the crowd started to form and become larger when 2pm strikes. Screams of girls could be heard. That got my nerve wrecking like shiat. From them, I can to see the ‘me’ when I was in my F4 days. LOL.
I got cold hands, stomach aches and an increasing thumping heart as time ticked by. Sly.. Sly.. I just couldn’t wait to see him in real life. LOL then when 3pm came, my mood was at the climax, feeling more enthu than ever!! In the end Joyce and I managed to get to the second row and it was fantastic when the autograph session finally commenced!! Sly arrived at about 3.30pm.. Late!! But nvm, he’s forgiven.
To tell the truth, I didn’t even scream at the sight of him even though he was so near. I think its because I have matured? Or perhaps its because when I saw him, I thought he is just like us, normal human beings. Maybe he doesn’t have that F4 effect on me? Bleahzz Pengzz.. Diaozz
Took a few photos of him with my sis’s digi cam! Oh God!! He looked just like a walking stick but his complexion is even fairer than when he was on TV! Feel like buying him some nutrient supplements and milk powder to build up his bones and muscles LOL. But his hairdo is so so so damned stylish!! I like it!! =)
But like what I have said, I didn’t really feel the thrill when I saw him.. It was pretty different from when I see F4 and Edison in real life.. Lol.. F4 and Edison just possess this inexplicable power to melt your heart and weaken you knees. But for Sly, its just okay for me haha. But then, he is special.. Seems to have this aura of x-factor surrounding him. Know what. Even aunties attended the autograph session!! And there were quite a few teenage boys too!!
When Sly came on stage, he did his usual routine.. Ya know, the wink wink, smile smile, make the usual poses lol.. But then. He seemed grouchy and bothered. He didn’t appear as happy as he used to be. Guess he’s just tired lol. Or maybe he’s thinking of Maia? Pengz.
Joyce and I got his autograph and shook his hand haha. He’s considered polite as he looked up at every one whose album he signed and said ‘Thank you’, looking into your eyes. Happy happy!!
Being troubled for don’t-know-what, I merely stuttered ‘thank you’ to him like a stunned moron instead of telling him how much his songs rocks lol. Then now as I think back, I wondered, why should I say thank you to him? For what? Silly me.
Guess that I’m not utterly crazy over him. I just want to see how he looks like in real life and also to get his autograph.
LOL, I even got Sly’s bookmark and a poster of him!!! Double bonus for this trip haha..
After that, Joyce came to my house and we spent some time together. Heya friend, really thanks a lot for solving my PC problem. Haha the BK meal is still muffled in my stomach, refusing to digest hahaha.. What about yours?
I hope you will like Sly’s songs yeah lol as you know, of all friends, it seems like I’m the only one that support him. I hope to influence you to like him lol and I think I have!! Heee…
Now that I have seen Sly, I feel that I’m not that mad over him. Why? I guess its because after all, I realized he’s just another human-being on Earth haha.. But then, this has been a fulfilling opportunity.
I am positive that this Sly autograph session thingy and getting the chance to spend time with Joyce (a friend I haven’t seen for ages) will be enough to keep me happy for a few goody days.
Now, I’m still highly jubilant about how smooth the day has went. Thanks God and Jesus Christ!! Thank you for answering my prayers!! I'm grateful for that. ^^,
Woo Hooooooo ~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PS: Will post tsome of the sly photos I took during my next entry. ^^,
... seen through it and moved on.
Thursday, April 21, 2005
4/21/2005 10:18:00 PM
After a phone conversation with Celine Chan.
This is what she narrated to me.
Celine and Choo Poh were walking towards the White Sands shopping building. Then they passed by the open space area of Coffee Bean. While walking, Celine spotted a guy and a girl sitting at one of the tables, chatting. That guy looked at her and Celine found him so damn awfully familiar.
After Celine and Choo Poh entered the building, she asked Choo Poh, “Who is that Ah-Beng-looking guy looking at us just now? Looks familiar.”
Choo Poh: Sylvester lah!!
WAHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! Celine, can you imagine how excited I feel for you!!!!!! WAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!
In addition, that girl Sly was with was Maia. Double WAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
Celine, you’re so God damn lucky to have spotted Sly!! Even have him making eye-contact with you!!!! Waaaaah… I’m so happy for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Triple WAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And know what Celine told me? - “The way Sly looked at me was as if he expects me to know who he is.”
Awwww….. That must be quite a penetrating stare from him.. LOL.. Anyway, I’m feeling so enthu for nothing haha.. Imagine.. Having a super dazing guy looking at you intently as you walked pass him… cool.
But then, Celine felt nothing at all… not even a jolt or nervousness.. LOL.
No no.. Celine wasn’t making a mistake. Yes, it was Sylvester Sim she saw earlier on at Coffee bean, chatting with Maia.
Cos one of my sis’s friend saw them there too. The couple is always spotted near the vicinity of Tampines and Pasir Ris ^^,
I asked Celine - “Is Sly’s gaze electrifying?”
Celine : “No leh.. I don’t like him. He’s so Ah Beng.”
Diaoz.
Hahaha this dear friend of mine don’t know she’s lucky.
And to think her knees are not weak upon seeing him.. still so cool about it.. :)
But then, if it’s Jerry Yan she saw, it’d be different. LOL.
How come? How come I live near the above mentioned vicinity but I have never get to see Sly? >.<
... seen through it and moved on.
4/21/2005 02:56:00 PM
Wah Kao. How awfully true this is...
I am: The Priss- Deliberate Brutal Love Dreamer (DBLDf)
Mature. Responsible. Aristocratic. Excuse me. The Priss.Prisses are the smartest of all female types. You're highly perceptive, and confident in your judgements. You'd take brutal honesty over superficiality any time--your friends always know where they stand with you. You're completely unfake. Don't tell me that's not a word. You're also excellent at redirecting internal negative energy.
These facts indicate people are often intimidated by you. They also fall for you, hard. You have a distant, composed allure that many find irresistible. If only more of them lived up to your standards.
You were probably the last among your friends to have sex. And the first to pretend that you're pregnant. LOL. Though you're inclined to use sex as weapon, at least it's not as one of mass destruction. You're choosier than most about your partners. A supportive relationship is what you're really after. Whether you know it or not, you need something steady & long-term. And soothing.
ALWAYS AVOID: The Playboy, The Loverboy
CONSIDER: The Manchild
Try yours at:
http://www.okcupid.com/oktest
... seen through it and moved on.
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
4/19/2005 11:11:00 PM
Our Government who claims they always have the nation’s interest at heart is currently hot on the idea of opening a casino, supporting it with their so-called practical reasons that a casino can help improve the country’s economy in the foreseeable future.
Despite countless debates and majority of the public who are against the idea, the Government claims they are capable of preventing any social problems caused by having a casino.
Well.. Well… Looks like those debate is just like a show instead of a thing they will take into consideration.
My Aunt was out in the streets this afternoon and there came a few workers from mediacorp doing a survey. Accompanied by a camera man, the person holding the mic was asking questions to random passer-bys. (Un)fortunately, my Aunt happened to be one of them.
Interviewer: (Holding the mic out) What are your views with regards to the Government’s plans of opening a casino in Singapore?
My Aunt: (unconcernedly) No comments.
Interviewer: (ask interestedly) Really no comments?
My Aunt: Well, if the Government is really determined to build a casino, whatever the public says is completely useless and none of their concern.
If they want, it means they want and they will still build it no matter what.
LOL. Great Aunt, great saying.. Words of wisdom indeed.
... seen through it and moved on.
Friday, April 15, 2005
4/15/2005 12:16:00 PM
Ways To Annoy People
1. While making presentations, occasionally bob your head like a parakeet.
2. Write down everything that your lecturer says, word for word. Think up a melody, and turn the words into a song. Bring a guitar to class and perform the song for the class. Explain to your lecturer that he/she is "very inspiring."
3. Go to a 5566 concert wearing a F4 T-Shirt.
4. Look at your hand in amazement and say, "Whoa, I never knew I had this!"
5. Produce a rental video consisting entirely of FBI copyright warnings.
6. Tell everyone you are Bill Clinton's cousin.
7. Tell people their fly is down when they're wearing sweatpants.
8. Any time a member of the opposite sex tries to talk to you, hold your hand up to prevent them from saying anything and say, "Look, I know what you're going to ask me... For the last time, no, I will NOT go out with you."
9. Ask the waitress for an extra seat for your "imaginary friend."
10. Go to McDonalds and ask for a BK Whopper.
11. Honk and wave to strangers.
12. Clap loudly every time a person walks into the lecture theater late.
13. Start a standing ovation at the end of the movie.
14. At lunch time, sit in your parked car with sunglasses on and point a hair dryer at passing cars. See if they slow down.
15. Change your name to "John Aaaaasmith" for the great glory of being first in the phone book. Claim it's a Hawaiian name, and demand that people pronounce each "a."
... seen through it and moved on.
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
4/13/2005 11:00:00 PM
I knew it'd be bad news. I just knew it. The moment the respond came exceptionally late and vague, I'm convinced my sensitiveness is no longer an issue here.
Though I can't see it with my own eyes, every beat of the heart can feel.
In return for my foolish sincerity, mendacity is what lies ahead.
Screw you.
... seen through it and moved on.
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
4/12/2005 07:09:00 PM
Argh! This is so loser-orientated of me to do that. Yes, shamefully I admitted I deleted my ‘Kiss from a rose’. After having written 9 chapters and posted 5 of them, I admit defeat to writer’s block. Such a loser I am but then, I’d rather put things to an end then let it hang there helplessly. You know how discouraging it was to be wavering whether to click onto the ‘delete’ button? I feel so irresponsible but then ignoring the problem would be worse.
Its such a remorseful feeling towards JJ fans. But I just couldn’t continue it.. My imagination went out of place. This ought to be a lessoned learnt. Definition of JJ here is ‘Jay-&-Jolin’. Not that JJ Lin Jun Jie.
To Trisha (if you are reading this), thanks a lot for the letter ^^, Ooh well, I’m sorry about the deleted JJ fanfic but if can, I will create a Jay fic when I’m ready for it.
So right now, its time to put 100% concentration on the two Sly fics. A MUST to complete it before the school gates officially opens on the 23rd of May. Almost forgot the Taufik one that was left hanging since ages until a reader reminded me. Well, shall not delete it.. still got hope.
I love ‘Daring To Dream’ by Nora Roberts! The novel rocks and the writer has this ability to ‘lure’ readers into the fantasy of the whole thing. She’s a page-turner.
Unless you call helping my father out in his work a job, it somewhat entertaining. Just have to stay in the vehicle and make sure no one steals the electronics. And also to keep a look out of waving hands lol. At least I’m not completely rotting now. Maybe I will start doing that when its my Mum’s last day at work this Wednesday.
Should I go to the autograph session? Or should I not?
I will never know until I reach the last petal of the rose.
... seen through it and moved on.
Saturday, April 09, 2005
4/09/2005 12:03:00 AM
LALALALA WOOOO!!!!!!!!!!
I’m happy now! Feeling so enthused!!
Today didn’t start off well actually… was getting all tensed up with my exams results but when I received them, I was relieved I needn’t take supp papers. Honestly, Supplementary Examinations are the last thing you would want to do when you’re studying at TP.
I’m also glad that I get as in Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry definition, an EE for my results which is, ‘Exceeded Expectations.’ There aren’t any A’s but at least there weren’t D’s either. Compared to the previous semester, my results this years are more ‘fit to be seen’.
Had finished reading The Order of the Phoenix!! Yay yay! One goals in the to-do-list is strike off! JK Rowling rocks as a writer and its amazing how she has the imagination to create a fascinating magical world that does not exist in reality. I love the Weasley twins. Cool!! It would be so damn great to have them in school. They create unlimited troubles, angered teachers and don’t give a damn about studies. Can certainly count one them to bully those nasty teachers.. Then I thought - How would Mr. Ferlin react if he ever has an encounter with the troublesome Weasley twins?
Haven’t been seeing my friends since (counting fingers) last summer? Ooh well I don’t know but I’m aware I haven’t been seeing them for a long time. Had a hearty dinner with Huilin and Branda at Pastamania and we took photos, photos, and more photos till low-batt decided to end it all. Passer-bys thought we are out of our minds but then, this was really none of their business. It was great meeting up with them. Especially Huilin, I frankly have not seen her since for hmm.. like how many decades already. ^^,
Hey hey!! Ho ho!! Haa haa!! Wow wow!! Hee hee!! Lah lah! Ta at!! Tee tee!! Whee whee!! Finally, Sly’s album is launched!! Lol I’m the 9th customer in that shop to purchase the album wheeheee I’m so happy now!
I got the autograph pass which can be used to get his autograph on the 23rd of April at Tampines Mall.. Not sure if I should go or not. Is this an opportunity sent by God? I’m nuts but looking at the location of the autograph session, which is within the vicinity I live, maybe I would be too stupid not to attend. =)
After all happenings that took place in my life, I still ought to thank God for seeing me through this semester and allowing me to proceed to the next semester of study without supp papers in the way. The months spent in school might be full of ups and downs but still, I get to see the light. Thank you Jesus for being gracious by guiding me through this tough journey. I’m feeling bad now as to be frank, I have not been praying much nowadays. But still, I’m grateful that God has looked after me and my family. His love is endless and unbiased. We cannot see him but definitely, those who believe in him can feel him and sense his love.
Thank you Jesus Christ. With You around, even though I might lose faith, but I know I can stay secure in the knowledge that Your existence will direct me to the right place when I’m lost. Even though the route You gave me might be longer and tougher than the rest of them, I’m really thankful that after all, You led me to the finishing line. You make me see the sunshine after the rain. You made me realized that praying alone is not enough and I need to work hard to show that I deserve what I want too.
Now, its really the time for me to slack, rot, rock and roll without worries and nightmares about getting freaking bad results. (^.^)v
... seen through it and moved on.
Sunday, April 03, 2005
4/03/2005 12:27:00 PM
The ‘Meet The Parents’ session in my sister’s school was sort of meaningful lol.. The principal was rather motivating as she gave the speech. In case you are wondering, yes, me, as the role of a ‘guardian’, attended my sister’s school to see the teachers. Well as you can see, its her O’levels this year and the school wanted to see the students’ parents to update them on how their children are doing.
Wah… the structure of Duman Secondary is about the same as LYSS. I can easily guess where’s the library, staff room, hall etc etc.. all about the same as that of LYSS. Definitely reminds of secondary school days.
After the whole thing ended, we took a bus down to Tampines for a movie. Well, ‘House of Fury’ is not a bad show to watch… though it wasn’t as attention-grabbing as how I thought it would be, but it wasn’t unsatisfactory either.
Can you believe it? MJ is selling JJ’s new album at $13.90 (period only) lol.. And I bought it since I think I will sooner or later.. can’t expect I’d bought that album earlier than Sly’s. Ooh Sly’s album… I simply can’t wait!! ^^,
I watched LOTR, the return of the king last night. Man, its 4 hours plus due to that fact that I bought the extended version… so you can imagine how sleepy I was after watching it.. But even though I still don’t fully understand the show, I enjoyed the movie. Think I’m going to read the book haha.. Finally I can understand why Siew wen likes LOTR so much.
In LOTR, I like Sam the best.. This character is such a loyal friend and all that he had contributed and sacrificed simply touched me. I don’t know why but I think Frodo is the most useless.. Hahaha.. Cannot fight. Cannot walk properly. Every time cry. Only know how to act like he was in terrible pain. But luckily, he wasn’t that irritating in general.
About a week has passed ever since my last exam paper.. Still hasn’t done anything fruitful. Hopefully, I can produce something satisfactory by the end of next week.
... seen through it and moved on.
Saturday, April 02, 2005
4/02/2005 12:28:00 AM
Sometimes I wish life could be better. I kept asking myself - why am I born here, into this family, into this environment? Why am I so different from other kids? Why can’t I choose where I wish I’d be born? Where can’t I even maintain a friendship? Why can’t…
Why am I so useless? Why can’t I even have the courage to go for something or someone I like? Why am I so afraid of rejections? Why am I so worried of failing?
It wasn’t easy growing up under the harsh comments from people who made fun of you. They criticized your looks, your appearance, your stupidity etc etc.
Never did they know they make no difference from spitting venom at me. It hurts just like a knife driving into my heart. What can I do? Cry? Shout? Nah. It doesn’t solve anything at all.
If they say burglars ought to be jailed, then what about those backstabbers who hurt you? If they say murderers ought to be sentenced to death, then what about those who didn’t harm you physically, but have trampled your heart emotionally?
This girl is turning 19 this year but still, her life is so bleak, so meaningless. She thought she will know what she really wants but fact is, she didn’t. Which guy will be the one to break her embarrassing record of being single for the past 18 years? Who will she meet in future and how will they treat her? How will her future be? A successful career woman? A famous writer? A normal office person? Or a pathetic nobody?
She is born stupid. She is born to feel inferior. She is born with a low self-esteem. But she isn’t born to be bullied and made fun of. Her purpose of existence isn’t to play the role of a punching bag for the rest. She is human and she has feelings. You can dislike her but you cannot deny her. You cannot and you should not put her down or even hate her when you have not even really know her.
What have you gained by causing her to hide in her room and cry? What have you gained by hurting her feelings through rumors?
You can’t just make her cry with your words that hurt. You can’t condemn her just because she unintentionally offended you in some ways. You have no rights to judge her.
She might be ignorant of you but that doesn’t mean she feels nothing. Each word you say, be it good or bad, she takes it seriously. If you think you have succeeded in crushing her confidence, yes, you did. You have stolen her self-belief but she will not be defeated. Because you failed to take away her pride. And you shall not and will not do that as long as she stays.
... seen through it and moved on.
