... seen through it and moved on.
Saturday, February 21, 2004
2/21/2004 04:16:00 PM
Thursday, 12th 2004 was the first day of TP’s open house… My lesson ended at 12 noon and just as I was walking out of the gate, I called Celine to ask where was she coz I wanna buy some toys from her… Be it fate or coincidence, she was on her way to TP open house! Cool!! So in the end I changed my destination… I waited for her at the bus stop and then, I bring her to tour around TP… I have lots of fun catching up with her and also, meet lots of my lyss classmates… miss them a lot and I’m so happy to see them. In TP, although there are many of my ex skool mates studying there, I seldom or never get to see them at all… and im glad that I finally get to meet them during that open house…
Celine and I toured around the skool, haha… for free gifts… And I was like acting as a visitor then queuing for free gifts… heeheee… then, met Veron and Joyce on the way and the 4 of us walked around… I pass the ‘baton’ to Veron and so, she’s Celine’s ‘official’ tourist… lol… Guess she can guide better than me coz she’s always hanging around TP… dunno why but I always see her face while in skool… the 4 of us… hmm… Celine said we are F4 then Veron nearly vomited…. Celine ar Celine… always the lamer of the group… (-_-!!!) … Also get to see Wanling, one of Celine’s friends studying in TP… she’s also another humorous one… great joker she is…
Then, woohoo!!! Here comes the casts from ‘light years’ to our skool… Celine and I went to queue for their autographs… haha… but we are not going gaga over them lah… cool… Willy Liu’s a cool dude!! So polite and always smiling!! After getting the autographs, we were heading to the second storey… we were in the open air staircase, climbing up… then something real sway happened to Celine… her poster flew off due to the very strong wind… how careless can she get?? **frowning and laughing** she was like “Oh mummy!! Wo De poster!!� Even more sway for her, the poster landed on a rooftop of a shelter at the first floor and all of us were eyeing at it hopelessly…. Guess if tt was an autograph of Jerry Yan, she would have jumped down… phew..heng ar **breaks into cold sweat**… I dun wan tragedy to happen…
In the end, another gust of wind blew the poster to the ground and yep!! Yeah!! Veron went down and got it for Celine… Mission completed. Poster saved. No injuries. No damages incurred. All safe and sound.
Soon after, the four of us went to the business skool canteen for a meal… then not long, we went home… actually, Joyce wanna come to my house but since its already evening, she would only have to make it some other time… in the end, only Celine came to my house lor… We played some computer games and together with my sis, we have a whale of time shouting, screeching and laughing while playing the games…
During that day, Celine and I actually chat a lot, not only abt our lives but also our secrets and troubles… feel reeli better after catching up with such friends… and also not to forget Joyce and Veron, you guys simply made my day a jovial one too!!
Okie… that’s the end of my blog for the open house… coolz… next blog….
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Tuesday… 17th Feb 2004...
This week, its my term test week…. Kaozz.. Feeling all the stress cuming back liao… Yesterday was the marketing test and cool, dunno if I would do well coz the questions were all so difficult… Today, it’s the tort law test… 20 MCQs… haha… feel like laughing coz the answers were so obvious… I mean, in a way that out of the five choices, the one that is the answer, its font is bold and italic… I was feeling so weird when attempting the test… I mean, how cum those answers tt I choose were those in bold and italic fonts?? Haha… Most of my classmates were discussing about this after that…
Hmm…. After this Thur, I can fly already!! But can only attain freedom of 1 week b4 returning to my cage… …
Cool… all my frenz grow up le… all …yes… almost all are falling in love… it’s a good sign here coz it shows that they are getting mature…. ‘Love‘… it’s a wonderful element… in fact, the most beautiful word God has created but yet, it’s a heart wrecking experience in the word too… especially if it’s a symptom or one sided love… but yet, I believe that if it’s a two sided love, how nice it will be but I dun think it’ll be lasting… for fate is jealous and wants to break them up… whatever it will be, it would just be as great to cherish those beside you always…and never letting them go…
Some of my friends are in dilemma of whether to let go or to cling onto it… I never know how to comfort them… coz I cant reeli feel how they are feeling now… what I could say is that, whatever decision you make, there would be both positive and negative views… its just up to us to decide to take the matter optimistically of pessimistically…
Some people might feel that clinging onto something are forms of being strong but sometimes, it takes even more strength to just let go… I believe that all of us have that someone wandering at somewhere looking us… its just that God hasn’t let us meet yet… I believe that out of the billions and zillions of people around the world, there ought to be that special someone meant for us…. Maybe there will be one day God will let the both of us cross our paths and soon after, ‘happily ever after’ prevails…
All my friends are in love except for me… am I a weirdo or what? I never know… anyway, I’m glad that it hasn’t come coz right now, I have no faith in this… furthermore, skool and work are keeping me too busy to even think of it … But if romance hits me, I wun run away… for ‘love’ is the most beautiful world everyone yearns to enter…
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18th Febuary 2004... Wednesday…
Today was the MBS test for me… kaoz… gone case liao… confirm fail wan… many pple were complaining and I was like ‘Huh? What kind of questions is this!?’ I didn’t even learn the topics tt came out!! Those that were covered during the revision lecture… those topics the lecturer informed that it was impt all didn’t cum out… cool…
I completed the test with 30 mins and I was like wanting to leave but the invigilator dun allow… sigh… I can feel that a couple of my classmates are dying to leave and there’s a guy beside me … he was like yawning so loudly… dunno he did it on purpose or what…
Then, as I wasn’t allow to leave and I couldn’t think of what to write on my answer sheet, I scribble stuffs on the question paper… haha… I even wrote down some inspirational stuffs.. Got the inspiration from Zhou jie lun’s ‘wou niu’… love that song so much!! Guess I was influence by Celine… Okie… here’s the result…. Hope it makes sense…
Slowly, I climbed the steps…
At my own desired pace I saw the light…
Even the smallest, most inferior me
Has the biggest dream…
Staring at my ray of goal …
I stretch out my determined palms for it…
At the highest peak as I take wing on a leaf…
Soaring high above the world which
Once upon a time looked down on me…
As the breeze of triumph blew off my tears and sweat…
I knew…
There’ll be a day I’ve found my own paradise…
Heee heee… tts the end…
Cool! I cnt wait for tml’s paper to be over!! Tml my last paper!! I cnt wait to fly!! Guess I’m gonna buy Westside story Vcd tml… simply love the Xing Wang!! So cool and bloody cool and super deeply madly COOL!! Must pray to God tt I will be able to buy the vcds tml…Then this week when exam over must start to update stories liao… have been keeping the readers waiting for too long already…
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Saturday, 21st Feb 2004.
Last night, I was reading those letters sent by my friends in the past. Then, I came across those sent by Stacey… Come to think about it, it had been pass 3 years since we last contact. Time flies. While reading through the letters she wrote to me, I actually felt like crying…
Yes. I miss her. I wonder how is she doing now… should be furthering her studies in England or Canada… Nevertheless, I hope she’s happy and doing fine. I thanked God I get to meet her and I can still remember when she left, I wasn’t feeling happy… but there are always things in life we can’t chose what we want. When we can’t decide fate, we should learn to accept.
Really a regret not being able to keep in touch with her. She hadn’t got my new address and I didn’t have hers. But I hope one day, God will let us meet again and no matter where am I, she will always be on my mind…
Maybe the reason why there’s separation is because God want us to understand the meaning of ‘Cherish’. I have learnt to treasure those around me and I thanked God for letting you guys play a part in my story of life. Friends Forever.
Okie… yep… cool…longest blog I’ve ever typed… hope tt satisfies you guys!! (^.^)
... seen through it and moved on.
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
2/18/2004 10:38:00 AM
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Thursday, February 05, 2004
2/05/2004 09:07:00 AM
Its suppose to be a happy day yesterday …its suppose to be a fulfilling day for me but yet, it ended up like shit… a terrible thing happened and right now, how I wish I could erase this off my mind or rather, not know of it…
Yesterday was the visit to the Parliament house. I kept on thinking I should be learning a lot of things and I had been trying to keep up with a cheerful mood behind my tired mind. But then, that thing happened… I had no idea how to type it out in words nor did I know how to explain coz it’s a long story… But of what I knew, I’m being called a racist by a guy from other class… He told everyone that was present and near him that I’m a racist and talk behind my back. Lots of the people who knew me heard it and many people who didn’t know me was there too. Thanks to him I’m ‘famous’ now…
An ex-classmate of mine asked if I have offended him before or not but I was like ‘what the… I didn’t even know his name and I didn’t even utter a word to him before… not even a hi’… … I was upset by this coz most of the people who went to the Parliament visit heard of the rumor and yep… rumors travel fast… I wanted to confront him and his girlfriend who was of the same class as me…
But then, Nuraini who told me of this, inform me not to confront him first for she is doing grp project with him.. Morever, one of my fren is doing project with Michelle (his gf)… I guess for now, I will just have to keep quiet. I reeli hope this is a misunderstanding.
Yesterday, I was sick and I was feeling moody because of this… Friends around me comforted me but still, I’m feeling terrible and lousy. Why? Why must the people I didn’t know backstab me? Had I done anything that offended them? I racked my brains but I just couldn’t think of one. I asked my close fren in TP if I’m reeli a racist. Noreen told me that if I’m one, I wouldn’t have mixed with the Malay friends of mine and in TP, most of my friends are Malays…
Yet, the other one told me izzit bcoz I seldom mix with the Chinese that’s why they misunderstood. But come on, why on Earth would I discriminate my own race? I have so many friends of the same race outside TP. Its just that in my class, I couldn’t really click well with the Chinese girls… And concluding that I am a racist just bcz of this is totally an unfair thing. I feel like bursting out and I feel so lousy now.
Many people who dunno me have a bad impression of me just because of that stupid guy whom I never knew. Yesterday, I really want to cry but I force myself not to. But yet, frenz who knew me believed me and they comfort me to forget this thing not worth my time. I want to forget but I couldn’t. Its so hard to… People kept on saying ‘cheer up’… ‘dun be sad’… ‘take it as nothing has happened’… but how can I do that when it has happened?
Today, I was feeling reeli sick that I didn’t want to go to skool… I hadn’t been feeling good physically and mentally since yesterday. How I wished things would get better and brighter… How I wish my frenz are with me now… they seemed so far away that I coulcn’t reach them but deep inside me, I know they care for me… Thanks my friends out there and yep.. take care…
... seen through it and moved on.
