Monday, November 27, 2006

Dear Lord Jesus Christ,

The Lord is my shepherd and there is nothing I shall fear.

O Lord, keep me safe from plans of the evil and take me away from them. Let me not be a tool or bait of the devil and keep it away with your protective shield. If I ever harbour any thoughts that are not glorifying to You, show them to me and guide me to get rid of them.

Teach me Your laws, Your Ways and Your Words. Enlighten me with the Holy Sprit that I may not walk outside the path of righteousness. O Lord, keep me in the center of Your Will and mould me to be more like You.

O Lord, I pray that You will strengthen my perseverance in the things I do and not let laziness conquer me. Make me diligent and cautious at work. In face of difficult situations and people, I pray that you will give me the tact to deal with them, so I would not be defeated with shame.

O Lord, give me the wisdom to discern Words that belong to You and those that are not. Remove my qualms about You and guide me to trust you completely because I want to. I don’t want to be a person who is always learning but never been able to understand Your teachings.

O Lord, if there is any wall there is blocking me from You at anytime, I pray that You will break it down and allow me to reach out for You, and soak in the warmth of Your love, Your grace, Your gentleness and Your strength.

O Lord, if I have made any mistakes which I have yet to discover, I pray that You will highlight them to me and give me the courage to admit them and guide me to rectify it. For I want to be a person with integrity and not of craftiness. .

O Lord, if I ever felt defeated / inferior / ashamed / uncertain / afraid / hopeless / upset , I pray that you will renew my spirit with strength, courage, faith and delight, and enlighten me that all good is not lost for those who continue to believe in You.

For I know that those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not be faint.

O Lord, thank you so much for Your grace and love throughout. Even at times when I may be too blinded by circumstances to see that, Your love and grace remain, stronger than ever. And I know I could never thank You enough for that.

In Jesus’ name, I pray. Amen.

... seen through it and moved on.

I told my mum that by thirty years old, if I am financially independent with too much to spend, I might consider adopting a child.

Why should I squander all my riches on luxury, branded stuffs and materials that bring nothing but only satisfaction to my vanity?

Life is but vanity.

I occasionally have thoughts of my life when I am old. Thoughts like what to do with my CPF savings when it is time to withdraw them? What will life be like after retirement? Who will take care of me when my hair turns grey? What if I have to live alone for the rest of my life when my parents have returned to God’s side and my sis has married off?

It all comes down to one elucidation – adopt a child, raise him/her well, teach him/her all the goods and warn him/her of all the bads, teach him/her table manners, devote him/her to a talent (e.g. piano, painting, a type of sport), shower him/her with the best possible but prepare him/her for the worst as well. So when the child grows up to be an adult, he/she can take care of you. Just like an investment.

I know that raising a child is never easy, moreover doing it alone. It’s all about responsibility, commitment, effort and time. Much more than that... and it may not turn out the way you want it to be.

Yet, it always occurs to me that I can do it.

Yes, I can.