It’s 2 am at the dead of the dark and here I am in front of my computer struggling to complete this report when none of my group members other than Shikin really helped. It freaks me out to think that I would never ever proceed on to my company law project at this rate things are going.

It feels like it’d take hours and hours more for me to finish this or perhaps, never. So many equipment and those retailers' websites just don't want to list the prices for our convenience. And how can I consolidate everything where there are members who just can’t be bothered to send you his or her part on time and treat it like I will spend 24/7 on this report?

I asked myself, why should I be so fucked up with the deadline on Monday when the rest doesn’t seem to care? There is one concentrating more on her company law project and assuming that the rest will complete the whole report. Than there’s one who never turned up for a proper meeting and has never delivered what he was supposed to. If there is a word to describe, it is ‘irresponsibility’. Are you sure you’re doing your Visio now and being responsible as a group member? Or are you now sleeping peacefully in the comfort of your bed and having no idea that your group member is slogging in front of the PC?

I just feel like throwing whatever Shikin and I have done at their face and let them wipe out the crap they’ve caused. It’s all excuses they’ve contributed as though everything that took place was an event of frustration.

Last afternoon at the lab, I was upset when the file I have saved in my diskette failed to open. Can you imagine the angst when all your company law issues and answers are gone just like that? The whole morning spent on it equaled to a wasted trash. It would mean ‘loser’ to cry so no, I wasn’t a loser and tried hard not to be.

This term break is even busier than normal school days. I feel sorry for my student as I have not been too patient with him for the past few days. It wasn’t easy to keep calm when he seemed like a little boy in dream world. But I know it was just me, my entire fault for giving tuition when your brain is fused after a whole day in school, trying to get everything done.

At least the SIP thingy is solved but nothing seems to be going right other than that.

I dread to even think of next week. A presentation is waiting for me on Tuesday and my group has not even reached half the completion. When there are only 2 persons carrying the burden of 5, how long do you think you will move on before you died of fatigue?