> Shrouded in darkness;

~~Saturday, October 30, 2004~~

10/30/2004 11:53:00 PM

So, what have I been doing these days?

Sis bought a digi-cam recently.

Bored and screwed, I had took pictures in of my room.
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Tata!! Welcome to my little world!! It looks like a rubbish chute due to the hols :)

My favourite book shelf!! Crammed with comics and comics and more comics I occupied myself with during these slacked days... and can you spot my favourite F4? lol^^,

I love purple.. but hell no.. too bad my bedsheet isn't purple.. or i would have love my room more.

The section of my room I spend most of my time at. In front of my computer!!

Everyweek, sis and I will take turns to strike out the contestant that's eliminated. Its my turn this week but sigh.. this means I need to strike out Chrissypoo's face.. what the...

Okay, that's all for now... :)

... seen through it and moved on.

10/30/2004 11:39:00 PM

With(out) me realising, I have slacked through 1 month of the holiday. Times flies especially when there are so many things you want to do but just failed to know where to start off with.

Feeling rather restless nowadays and my body alarm is serioulsy distorted. I always sleep at 5am every morning and woke up at about 1pm in the afternoon. Before I know it, evening this way comes and I would be like man, how come time seems to be racing today?

Really did nothing useful nowdays and I can't even complete a decent chapter. I hate it when my brain is blocked, not knowing what to write/do next. For a couple of times I have decided to pen down whatever ideas I have in mind but my hand is simply too lazy to even lift up the pen. Writing can be so tiring. Typing seems less boring and that's the way it looks like now.

I was scrolling down my past blogs and I realised that all my entries are actually craps which doesn't revolves around my life. Its always either someone's life or someone's words. Similar as me studying a certain situation in a third party's point of view. I haven't been blogging about myself lately. That is, I've no idea what to 'discuss' about myself. Have been stucked at home these days. Just like the gloomy weather, I'm not feeling good either. I don't feel like talking to people nowadays.

Did I mention that I am still in love with isolation?

Its really nice to be alone at times.. very peaceful.. cos whenever with people, there's always this possibility to argue/debate be it intentional or not. I rather not see someone for a very long time than see him/her often. Absence makes the heart fonder (whatever).

I hate going out because that means spending money. It seriously is a torture to be declared broke. I want to look for a job but can't put my finger on argh... forget it.. >.< Not really financially 'crippled' anyway.. just got to scrimp and save for the Dec 6 school reopen week.

Life's a struggle.

But don't afraid to be different.

... seen through it and moved on.

10/30/2004 06:15:00 PM

Yay!!

Change the song again..

Now its Sly's 'I don't wanna miss a thing'.

I suppose its better then his 'Lets Groove.'

... seen through it and moved on.

10/30/2004 01:47:00 AM

Why Chris?

I was actually crossing my fingers and hoping it'd be Leandra this week.

Wah!!!

Poor him.. the moment he was declared unsafe, he looked like a poor kid who have lose his way.. :(

Did anyone notice how relieved and how Leandra acted when she was declared safe? For two times she had been doing so.

First it was with Jerry.

And now it was with Chris.

Pisses me off man. >.<

But Chris managed to stay calm despite the overwhelming emotions. Kudos to that!! :)

L.. you'll be next... hiak hiak..

... seen through it and moved on.

~~Friday, October 29, 2004~~

10/29/2004 02:31:00 AM

Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trail you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed. If you are insulted because of the name of Christ, you are blessed, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests on you.

1 Peter 4:12-14

... seen through it and moved on.

~~Thursday, October 28, 2004~~

10/28/2004 02:33:00 AM

Once upon a time, there was a very strong woodcutter. He asked for a job from a timber merchant, and he got it. The pay was really good and so were the work conditions. For that reason the woodcutter was determined to do his
best.

His boss gave him an axe and showed him the area where he was supposed to work.

The first day, the woodcutter brought down 18 trees.

The Boss was very much impressed and said, "Congratulations, keep it up!"

Very motivated by the words of the boss, the woodcutter tried harder the next day, but he only could bring down 15 trees. The third day he tried even harder, but he only could bring down 10 trees.

Day after day he was bringing down less and less trees.

"I must be losing my strength", the woodcutter thought to himself.

He went to the boss and apologized, saying that he could not understand what was going on.

"When was the last time you sharpened your Axe?" the boss asked.

"Sharpen? I had no time to sharpen my Axe. I have been very busy trying to cut trees.

The moral of the story:

Our lives are like that. We sometimes get so busy that we don't take time to sharpen the axe. In today's world, it seems that everyone is busier than ever, but less happy than ever. Why is that? Could it be that we have forgotten how to stay sharp?

There is nothing wrong with activity and hard work.

But we should not get so busy that we neglect the truly important things in life, like our personal life, taking time to care for others, taking time to read, etc.

We all need time to relax, to think and meditate, to learn and grow.

If we don't take time to sharpen the axe, we will become dull and lose our effectiveness.

So start from today, think about the ways by which you could do your job more effectively and add a lot of value to it.

Hope this story has given you some insight to life.

May you be happy always.

"To handle yourself, use your head. To handle others, use your heart."

... seen through it and moved on.

~~Tuesday, October 26, 2004~~

10/26/2004 01:55:00 AM

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so HAPPY!!

Taufik replied my message!!

YAY!!

This is what he wrote back:

'hello swimfan,

I'm glad you love the performance.
I hope I'll be able to entertain you more with my
performances. cross my fingers!!!

Thank you so much for your support
I'll continue to do my best and not disappoint you.
Cheers

Taufik'

(^_^)v

YAY!! :)

... seen through it and moved on.

~~Sunday, October 24, 2004~~

10/24/2004 10:14:00 PM

Mother Nature is so LAME.

Especially during the end of the year.

Other countries have snow.

But what about us?

We've got rain.

... seen through it and moved on.

~~Saturday, October 23, 2004~~

10/23/2004 06:45:00 PM

I screamed like mad to cheer for Sly.

Haha.. don't really like Maia now.. cos performance no suprises.. always the same that I'm starting to get bored..

And did anyone notice how sarcastic she was?

**YAWN**

But Sly might not 'survive' next week.

All thanks to Glenn Ong and the stupid Media for spreading rumors!!

Yay yay!!

I enjoy isolation so much nowadays.

No picking up calls. No talking to anyone except for my family.

Sometimes, its good to lose all communication with everyone.

Feels so GOOD.

So let me enjoy this isolation for the time-being.

Cos I won't be able to do that once school re-opens.

... seen through it and moved on.

~~Tuesday, October 19, 2004~~

10/19/2004 11:58:00 PM

"You're forever the same. Come on, its time you change yourself." people once told me that.

Do I have to change to be your friend?

Or do I change for goodness sake of staying as your friend?

Or do you want me to change for the welfare of myself?

Or are you tired of the way I am now?

Or do you find the current me an eyesore that you thought would be summoned right by your side upon your command?

How does it matters if i change, be it my looks or character affect our friendship?

Is my identity as your friend endorsed only if i change myself to be someone i am not or to someone i don't like?

You might not be mouth fouling about me in front of me.

Yet I am aware you're doing this behind my back.

Ouch.

Maybe your joke about me is a trival contribution to your laughter.

But its a major upset to my tears.

Perhaps you wouldn't thought it could be that serious. Afterall, its only a comment that ends with a shrug. But to me, i don't find it appealing. Call me sensitive call me over-reacting. I don't care.

Still, I'd like to ask:

Do you be-friend me for who i am in the first place or do you make friends with me for what i am?

What if i change one day to the worse, will i still be ceritified to address you as my friend?

Or would you act like normal but yet mind the change in me?

What if i become penniless one day. Will i still have frenz who i call them 'frenz'?

'YES! YES! OF COURSE!' i heard the definite answer.

But i will never know.

I trust you. But will my trust in you be crashed?

Till then, i guess i would be able to check if our friendship is really that vulnerable.

This makes me think if frenz really are angels sent by God to look after us or to change us to someone we are not.

I know i will offend many out there. I may even hurt some. But self-reflections has showed that i would be too fake if i don't blog about this realization.

I'm convinced that many out there have thought of this before too.

Why don't blog?

Why is it that when I'm chatting with you, I feel like an heated arguement and so bloody hell wanna hang up the call?

Why is it that when i'm with you, i can't be the real me?

Why?

Sometimes i'd rather be a hermit.

Isolation at least permits me to stay the same and be who i am.

... seen through it and moved on.

10/19/2004 11:59:00 AM

- People think small, dream small, and act small. It is time
to think big, dream big, and act big.

-Life is NEVER what happens. It is what YOU make out of it.

-Here and now (present) is the greatest resource. When you wake up in
the morning, tell yourself: I will be productive today!

- Comprising on truth reduces your integrity. There is no half-truth. A
lie is a lie.

'Oh great.. here comes the holiday and here i am.. turning into a philosopher.. great.. oh great.. ' ^^,

... seen through it and moved on.

~~Monday, October 18, 2004~~

10/18/2004 02:50:00 AM

1 Corinthians 13: 1-13-
"I may be able to speak the languages of human being and even angels, but if I have no love, my speech is no more than a noisy gong or a clanging bell. I may have the gift of inspired preaching; I may have all knowledge and understand all secrets; I may have the faith needed to move mountains- but if I have no love, I am NOTHING. I may give away everything I have, and even give up my body to be burned, but if I have no love, this does me no good."

... seen through it and moved on.

~~Sunday, October 17, 2004~~

10/17/2004 03:37:00 AM

Something meaningful I learnt from my aunty's mail:

The most destructive habit --> Worry

The greatest joy --> Giving

The greatest loss--> Loss of respect

The most dangerous pariah--> A gossiper

The world's most incredible computer--> The brain

The worst thing to be without--> Hope

The most satisfying work--> Helping others

The ugliest personality trait--> Selfishness

The most endangered species--> Dedicated leaders

The deadliest weapon--> The tongue

The two most power-filled words--> "I Can"

The greatest asset--> Faith

Our greatest natural resource--> Our youth

The greatest "shot in the arm"--> Encouragement

The greatest problem to overcome--> Fear

The most worthless emotion--> Self-pity

The most beautiful attire--> SMILE!

The most prized possession--> Integrity

The most effective sleeping pill--> Peace of mind

The most crippling failure disease--> Excuses

The most powerful force in life--> Love

The most powerful channel of communication--> Prayer

The most contagious spirit--> Enthusiasm

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Something I learnt from Jerry Ong. (Honestly, I don't hate him now though its only fair he left the competition for the sake of letting the better ones stay.) :

1)All things work together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. I know that His grace is sufficient for me and that His strength is made perfect in my weakness. That is why I can still smile despite the tough journey I'm facing.

2)Since God put me in a tough position, nothing is going to happen that He will not allow. I rest secure in the knowledge that since He is with me, everything is going to be ok, and more than ok.

3) And I am honoured that I could experience this minute, minute, minute fraction of the pain and humiliation that my Lord Jesus went through for me. To Him is the glory forever and ever!

4) This strength I have is supernatural - from God. On my own, I would have backed out of this a long time ago. He is carrying me.

... seen through it and moved on.

~~Saturday, October 16, 2004~~

10/16/2004 01:58:00 AM

I love the song 'Ju Li' (distance) by JJ. Very meaningful and it conveys the message of two souls that just weren't meant to be. :(

'...a line separated you and me apart. It was a distance I could never cover. And it was a fact I could never change....'

Argh!! My translation sucks.

I give up.

For I would spoil the riveting romance of this song.

And I don't want JJ to haunt me with a chopper.

WAH!!

... seen through it and moved on.

~~Thursday, October 14, 2004~~

10/14/2004 02:55:00 AM

!@#$%^&*@#$%^&*!!! Okay. I'm just SAYING someone. I'm NOT SCOLDING. Because I didn't SHOUT.

LOL.

'You have no right to make ill comments of anyone and anyone in this whole wide world has all the freedom and permission to say, write, and do whatever they want/need/like as long as it isn't at the expense of harming/hurting anyone in this whole wide world so please stop being unpleased with anyone in this whole wide world in whatever they do because whatever they do/say/write has got nothing to do with you and since it won't affect anyone in this whole wide world for what you K-PO with their matters and disturb their freedom of actions/speech/writing so you just stay off people's business and let anyone and everyone in this whole wide world to do whatever they want to do!'

Yay yay.

End of my statute.

Yay yay.

... seen through it and moved on.

10/14/2004 02:49:00 AM

Before I go to sleep, will just have a brief recap of those rare happenings. Well, not very unusual actually.

Today, make a trip to orchard with Huimin and Lester. Haha! Huimin needed me to videocam her interview with an ang-moh, a famous floorball MVP. Yay! Emilyn Lu's Production. Its the first time I take the role of a 'director'. I hope my fliming skills are fine.

Cool. Interviewing someone. Yet bloody shit reminds me of client interviewing thingy = all upset memories coming back. Good news = Interviewing today. Angmoh!! An angmoh!! LOL.. Not bad looking lar him and Huimin if I'm not mistaken (I don't think I am) is smittened by his charms. :)

The three of us had sushi buffet for lunch. Man, Lester ordered all those not-appealing-at-all dishes. Raw scallop.. cold tofu.. eeks.. >.<.. Haha! It was funny too and then Huimin, throw the whole plate of raw salmon away. I guess we were the most noisy diners that that sushi restaurant has ever encountered. Not to mention Huimin even smuggled food out. Oops.. There's these two damn scary statues situated at the 3rd or 4th floor of cinneleisure. Grrr... FRANKENSTEIN!! SCARY!! Esp the eyes and it looked so real!! Yeah.. and I thought it was a real person!! LOL.. scare the shit out of me while I was making my trip to the toliet. Alone. Goosebumps.

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Okie, to add on to this week, I did two good deeds. LOL. I produced blogskins for my friends!! Yay!! Haha. At least I didn't use the PC for naught. ^^,

I enjoyed watching double happiness earlier on. Pengz. The plot is all nonsense but it didn't fail to make me laugh out out. Haha! They make a kipnapping incident looked so comical. LOL.. esp rayson tan and xie shao guang. :)

Yay!! At least Channel 8 is starting to have brains now. Toro's drama series this way come!! Yay!! What a nice time to telecast the show.. its the wonderful hols!! ^.^ .. Kudos to Channel 8.

Okie dokie... some time ago, my sis bought a few comics series titled - "Ba Wang Ai Ren'. Its actually about an underworld triad leader falling for a ordinary girl. Nice drawings. Pretty looks. Cool faces. But I was a little shocked at the outstanding amount of r-rated scenes. Stopped reading. Yes, I'm good! I AM!! OMG.. SIS!! YOU ACTUALLY READ THIS?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL (^.^)

But I think she didn't do that on purpose. Cos she stopped buying after realising that. LOL. tsk tsk.. think of it, DDS and kindaichi are better. Much much much (x 1000000000000000) better.

My PC is lagging. Getting retarded but not anymore after Shabear sent me his adware installation.

Thanks alot shabear!! I appreciate your help lotz!! ^^,
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... seen through it and moved on.

~~Tuesday, October 12, 2004~~

10/12/2004 09:04:00 PM

As a kid, I was treated like one. Sheltered from any harms by lovely parents. But not often did I appreciate that. In fact, things turned out impulsive when a child makes wrongful accusations that parents are controlling them too hard, limiting their space of freedom.

But never did they thought with someone protecting you, you actually need not bear full responsibilites for whatever you've done. Because no matter what, your parents would clear up the mess you've created. All you have to is just apologise and probably suffer a few cane marks. Yet after that, the rainbow appears as normal.

Things turn different now. Sometimes I wish I am still a kid. Sometimes i rather have cane marks then hidden scars in the heart. I actually wondered how many times I've said that but I don't care. The older I get, the more responsibilites I've to bear. Things aren't as simple as going downstairs to the playground or playing tug-o-war with friends.

I wish I can get home and complain to my mother of some people who bullied them. But that sounds extremely childish for an adult. As kids, getting bullied means one of your classmates or a big boy snatching your sweets away.. calling you names.. etc etc..

But as a grown-up, getting bullied is a totally different definition. It compromises a lot of things. Example: getting backstabbed by people, recieving sarcasm from others but have to act like I never give a shit, feeling left-out but have to play on with it like I would never care if i'm going to be lonely.

Occasionally, I would spend time alone in the room, reflecting at all those wrong things I've done. And I felt that I'm really a sinner. I honestly think its time everyone really devote some time for self-reflection on those bad things they've done.

Because frankly, as human beings, they only remember the good things they've done. They either hide or simply forget their bad deeds. I always ses this in conversations among people and in their blogs. They talked and droned on about the good stuffs they contributed. Then they complained how bad people around them are and how they're ill treated by them.

Problem is, have all these people ever record down the mistakes they commit? Have they even spend time realising if they've hurt anyone be it intentional or on purpose?

They never.

Am I'm ashamed to say that i'm one of these human-beings. But I'm also proud to say at times, i do find time finding out my flaws and discovering my mistakes. No human is perfect and I am never perfect.

But all i can do is, besides, remembering bad points of others, i shouldn't forget their strengths too.

And besides recalling my good deeds, i should also watch out for my mistakes.

I must ask myself -- Why must some people hurt me? There's definitely something wrong i've done in the first place to recieve such treatment.

Therefore I'm party responsible also.

Quote of the day: Never blame others for what they've done to you. Instead, reflect on what you've done to them.

... seen through it and moved on.

~~Monday, October 11, 2004~~

10/11/2004 03:20:00 AM

Yay Yay.

Created a new signature to put in the SI forum post.

Yay yay.

... seen through it and moved on.

~~Friday, October 08, 2004~~

10/08/2004 11:13:00 PM

Shocked.

How on Earth can Chrissypoo and constipation king kicked David out?

This is shit! SG Idol is starting to lost its credit :(

With the good ones out and the weak ones staying.. walao.. i dunno what else to say. Today result surprises me. Again.

Maybe another good one would get kicked out next week.

Like Maia?

Or sly?

OMG!! Kns.. if that happens, then i wun support this show as much!!

Maybe i wun even want to watch!!

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.+. Tribute to David Yeo .+.

"I always listen... **audience laughs** I do! **audience laughs again** Reeli!!"

Ken: "David, do you think you're better than the other contestants? "
David: "How can ask this kind of questions one?"

"I'm number 7... again!"
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The 3 nerdys. LOL. Have a good laugh at this.. ^^,

Most probably his last gathering with the other 4 male contestants :(

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End.

... seen through it and moved on.

10/08/2004 01:59:00 AM

David's performance was so funny and because of that, he left me the deepest impression of all.. haha!! He's so energetic like an over-charged battery.. LOL...

Sly as always, rocks BIG TIME!! Different from other contestants, he didn't dance with the rhythm of the music but instead, just concentrate on his vocals. Thumbs up!! Really got his rocker style.. LOL. Woo Hoo!! Even Ken complimented him.

I like taufik's performance too.. to me, its like better than David.. reeli got improvement.. lol.. But who am I? I'm no musican or watever professional in music to critic ppl.. Okay.. that's just what I feel.

Oli is so funny too.. I'm starting to think she reeli resembles Ella.. LOL.. Pengz.

Okie, Im betting that Chris or Maia will be out next. One can't sing while the latter doesn't have a big fan base. Still, things always turn out unexpected. The results might be another shocking event. As much as I want Jerry Ong out, but I think he'll stay for quite some time. Those aunties that wore those shirts with his name on it just proved how much they support him. Looks like they're gonna vote like crazy.

I know I know... some must be thinking that I've no life rite?? Fancy watching and supporting SG Idol. But I don't care and I don't give a shit. Its our country's own idol and no matter how bad its gonna be and no matter how much it can't be compared to American Idol, I'm still rooting for the show all the way.

I don't give a damn what others say.

Judges are not creative? Gurmit can't host? The show has no atmosphere? None of the contestant are really good? The show is a failure? NAH! I, Emilyn Lu simply don't give a SHIT!! To me, its already quite a success. One can't expect much from mediacorp.

I know my sis and Ah CeL are standing by my side.. haha!! So nice!! :)

... seen through it and moved on.

~~Thursday, October 07, 2004~~

10/07/2004 02:02:00 AM

Sometime ago as long as my memory allows me to recall, I remembered this little argument with my parents on the definition of 'Diaoz'.

I don't know if I have blog about it but in case I haven't and not wanting my instant amnesia to erase everything off, I shall repeat that again.

It started off on any normal day and if I wasn't wrong this 'debate' thingy included my sis too. We were talking over some matters and I happened to use the word 'Diao' in my comments. Mom heard it.

Bingo

She asked - "Diao? What is diao?"
Me - "Dunno leh. But its the Y-Generation trendy way of communication."
Mom - "Izzit? I think its a vulglar language."

Honestly speaking and no lying, I don't know the meaning of that word. Till now, I'm not even sure if that word exists. News soon spread to my father's ears and yeah.. he said 'Diao' is a vulglar word.

Diaoz. How did he know? I don't believe. LOL.

Coz I learnt that word from Mr Jay Chou.

I don't know its meaning.

But the way Chou Dong says it sounds so cool.

Being silly, I followed, thinking I may sound cool too.

But then I realised that I'm not at all. LOL.

Even my friends, example Celine Chan aka Queen of Jokebox uses that in her blog entries. All thanks to her.. Just read her latest blog entry in which she uses 'Diao' too thus, remind me of that incident.

Aunty Celine (Not Ah_CeL. Hee.. gotta make clear 1st.. haha..).. the aunty Celine Chan Hui Juan.. You have any idea what 'Diao' means?

LOL.

Tell me if you know okay? ^^,

Or are you also the same as me?

Dunno its meaning but still uses it anyhow.

(-_-!!!)

But I think I'm not the only teen that does that.

Diaoz.

... seen through it and moved on.

~~Wednesday, October 06, 2004~~

10/06/2004 03:07:00 PM

YAY YAY!!

Announcement!!

Announcement!!

Mr Jay Chou is currently on hiatus.

He will only be back after the SG Idol craze is over.

Thank you.

:)

... seen through it and moved on.

~~Monday, October 04, 2004~~

10/04/2004 10:40:00 PM

What a SWAY day.

sway one: woke up at 6.30am instead of 6.

sway two: couldn't find mechanical pencil and was already running late for skool.

sway three: waited 20 minutes for the TP shuttle bus only to find out that it doesnt operate on exam week.

sway four: rushed to interchange immediately like one siao.

sway five: reached exam hall at exactly 9am.

sway six: forgot the PAL statement format.

sway seven: photocopy machine at lvl 5 library when out of tone while photocopying.

sway eight: went up to the photocopy machine at lvl 7 only yo find out that its paper jammed.

Very sway and the sway list goes on until now...

... seen through it and moved on.

~~Friday, October 01, 2004~~

10/01/2004 09:59:00 PM

Equipped with Crim Pro study materials, accounting notes, stationeries, Discman, Jay Chou's CDs and sweater etc, I was on my way to meet Celine. That was another of my study trip to airport at night. I love the environment there. The night was cold, all thanks to the aftermath of that heavy downpour.

Reached there around 10 plus and aftering Lester joined us, the 3 of us headed to the viewing mall. Much to our disappoinment, only 1/4 of the viewing mall was available. The rest 3/4 were blocked up for renovation stuffs. After laying out the mat and getting verything organised, we started our self-revision.

A few benches away from us, a middle aged chines man was sleeping. Kaozz.. snore damn loudly that I've to increase the volume of my discman music. His snore is funny too. The way he snored was like he wouldn't get a chance to snore again for the rest of his life thus, snore as loud, as funny, as 'special' as possible. And then at the benches beside us, there's this very stunning-looking handsome angmoh.. looks even better than Mr Bloom and Mr Pitt.. LOL.. Lester was thinking of ways to talk at him and even came up with this funny theory that this angmoh might be a gay watever, Nah, can't be.

We decided to turn in at 4.30 am. All of us were dead-beat to continue our revision.

Dreamland time.

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Then the worst moment dawned in when I was awaken by Celine's shocked shouting for her missing bag. Still in the blur mood, i jerked up sharply, trying to make out what she was saying. Even Lester who was sleeping like a log woke up too. Damned. Celine's bag was really missing together with some of her valuables inside. That idiotic theif must had took it when all 3 of us were sleeping, catching us off-guard.

I didn't know how to comfort my fren, nor did i know how exactly to react. Breakfast thingy cancelled. Study thingy ended. After packing up, we headed off to report the lost bag at the customer service center. Sulky-ness, complains, groans, anger and everything under the context of gloominess followed us as during our journey home.

Due to this, phobia of studying overnight at the airport surfaced. BooHoo.

Reached home in the late morning, catching only about an hour of sleep b4 meeting Siew Wen in the noon to watch a movie.

'New Police Story' is a nice movie.. moreover, i see a very different Jackie Chan in the movie.. He's mores sentimental. In the midst of hectic study week, I managed to find time for a movie. Went to watch it with Siew Wen today. To my amazement, Nic Tse is actually playing the role of a joker. Nevertheless, i like his character.. Daniel Wu, cool.. what a excellent actor he is..

I'm feelin sore with pain now lah. Break a new record. Haven really sleep since last nite (except for the 1 hour nap this morning). Feeling exhuasted and dead.

Oh ya, I'm glad that Bev aka drama mama is OUTTA the competition AT LAST. But eh... Jessea?? Sigh... Jerry Ong!!!! You better not let me see you in streets or I will not hesitate to throw eggs at you (Actually i won't do that lah.. only say these outta anger..)

I feel reeli discontented to put a red strike on Jessea's face of the SI finalist poster.

It surprises me that J.Ong, the Constipation King kicked Jessea out! Wanted to go to the forum but its bombarded with too many connections from other internet users.. LOL.. sure can feel the 'heat' going on from the dissastified audience.

C'mon ppl.. even if you're tone deaf, you still ought NOT to vote of Mr Ong . He sucks. Not that I'm bad. But he really sucks. Im saying this not bcz he doesnt appeal to me. But honestly, i think he pays his own $$ to get into the finalists. Or else, what can explain why when almost everyone dislikes him?

Okie. No proof I know. No evidence to bring him to court for being dishonest.

Then, who cares?

Sly fans!! Better vote 10 times more.. cos its oso a possibility that Jerry may kicked him out next round!!

From the Jerry-kick-Jessea-out theory, we can see that the impossible have turned possible.

So, VOTE! VOTE! VOTE!

... seen through it and moved on.

10/01/2004 06:59:00 PM

Spore idol last night was BORRRRRING.

Honestly, it was.

But luckily Sly came in time ro end the show with a 'WOW'..

I like Taufik performance.. he reeli surprises me.. but i dunno what the heck were the 1st 3 judges thinking about.. stupid.

I'm betting that either Beverly or Jerry will say bye bye tonite.. LOL..

Will blog more later..

Since yesterday till today, so many things have took place..

Reeli, i feel im riding on a roller coaster..

... seen through it and moved on.