I'm so vexed and upset now. This feelings always come during a Sunday night. Guess I must be worrying for lcm lessons tml. But worry about what? I really have no idea and yeah, its really stupid of me to worry when there's nothing to be worried about in the first place. Maybe there is but I just can't figure it out. Sunday nights are the worst especially when there's school on Monday. Just feel there's something undone... something that needs to be completed by tml but i just dun grab it.. its so out of the reach.

And did i tell you how much it sucks to be attending tutorials nowadays? I mean, even when i go for lessons prepared, i still feel there's something i've not done.

Sometimes, i really worry there's something wrong with me. Sometimes i worry I dun actually feel things like regular people do. For those with normal minds, they should be worrying for their undone projects when the deadlines are coming so close. Sad to say, this doesn't really affect me much. I'm afraid that's me. No sense of urgency. But i just want to make it a point to the rest that having no sense of urgency doesn't mean I'm a full-time slacker. What rights do you have to look down on me? Okie, something is definitely wrong with me now. -.- I dun need any help but frankly, school sux BIG TIME.

Then this is happening to me now. I'm seriously suffeirng from writer's block. I've been staring at the PC with the MS word program on but failed to type anything constructive. Not even a proper sentence. Damned shit. Inspiration stucked. What to do? There's no cure for this. God, i look like a dim-witted moron. Argh! Morons are not meant to be clever anyway.

Maybe everyone is feeling the same as I do? And what the right do i have to complain, complain, complain? I'm not the only one left behind rite? But how come i dun see anyone with me? Gosh, this makes me think of Shi Jie Mo Ri by Jay.

Have faith.. have faith... Bleahzz.. i'm so numbed by these 2 words. No effect on me. Have faith? Then who can give me faith in the first place?

Remembering the quotes on my sis's very very red t-shirt, it says something like -- We develop language because of our deep inner need to COMPLAIN.

Quite true.

The next saddest thing will be later on when i close my eyes to sleep. Cause the next moment when i open my eyes, morning greets me and then.................................

Time for SCHOOL.

See? Life won't get any better now right?