yay yay!! change new layout again... haha!! cos was so free now and got no mood to study... bleahzz...
... seen through it and moved on.
Saturday, April 17, 2004
4/17/2004 12:31:00 PM
Monday 19th april -- crim law exam
comments: 2 more days to prepare... gosh!! emilyn!! u seriously need to buck up if u dun wanna fail!! There's still chunks of things u dun understand!!
Tuesday 20th April -- Managing Business Systems Exam
comments: Girl!! u got more than 10 chaps to cover in 2 days... no more slacking unless u wanna get slacking results!!
Friday 23rd April -- Macroecons Exam
comments: Emilyn! dun tell me you've confidence for this paper.. not when u have been skipping lectures!! there's still time for this... work hard!!
Saturday 24th April -- Law of Tort
comments: this is ur worst subject ya!! dun forget.. u failed badly in the test the other time... and to think u have not started analysing the case!! emilyn lu si han!! wat the heck are you doing??!! u wanna cum back for sub papers izzit??!!
Monday 26th April -- Legal Systems and Methods of Singapore
comments: dun tell mi u're ready for this... not when u havent even tabulate those provisions and read up the notes!! Thou its open book doesnt mean u can pass!! emilyn!! u should know how freaking tricky those questions can get!!
Monday 26th April -- Principles of Marketing
comments: yeah... got two papers on this day... for this, u think u can pass if u dun study??!! its time to wake up emilyn!! certainly u dun wanna cum bck to retake this rite?? i mean, who would want to redo this subject again??
Think u can pass the exams if u pray very very very hard?? -- ----- DREAM ON emilyn!! U must work hard for it too!! God doesnt give credits to those who jolly well dun deserve it!! Show him that u deserve the good grades!! Work hard and God will bless you more!!
... seen through it and moved on.
Friday, April 16, 2004
4/16/2004 11:30:00 AM
Love. You Truly Desire Love. You long for someone
to hold you and take the pain away. You haven't
been in much relationships or you need to work
on how to handle them. You always seem lost in
a daydream about the person you care about
most.
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... seen through it and moved on.
Thursday, April 15, 2004
4/15/2004 10:18:00 PM
Was damn happy yesterday when i went to teach tuition... cos mindy's auntie was bck from philippines and its so great tt her grandma and fellows had moved back to where they come frm... cool... ooh well not tt i detested them but was like... hmm... they kinda gimme a distant and uncomfortable feeling like they are not sastified with me coaching mindy... glad tt auntie tes is back... miss you lots (^.^ )... !! she even brought some mangoes bck from philippines and sliced some for me to eat... so sweet of her and well, it taste kinda wierd with those chillis and soy sauce but still, force myself to finish since it was her sincerity... nevertheless, reeli kinda like tuition class yesterday...
exams exams exams! they are so near the corner but yet, i seriously dun feel like studying... like expected, not much people turned up for lsm today... yeah.. dead boring lesson... who would wanna cum?? Later shikin and i skipped marketing tut cos we hv simply no mood for tt and more ever, we need to prepare for the exams... cool... crim law case scenario is so difficult to understand and the exam is on the upcoming monday le... nevertheless, must tell myself tt i can overcome tt... must reeli do well... i cant afford to fail... i mean, er hem... who would want to take supp papers?? definitely NOT me... the both of us discussed a few of the issues in the 'dramatic' case and then, chit chat... well, we tok about how fast time can get and how we wished to be in the same class next sem... cos i was pretty apprehansive of the class i would be posted to next sem... would i be alone? would i hv too many nasty classmates watever...
now, i had tried to learn to accept those pple in my class and well... they're actually not bad... tml would be the last lesson with them... shikin and i made a deal to sit in a place where we could see all our classmates as its the last lesson tml... and yep! i agreed! dun think it sounds lame cos now, im learning the real meaning of 'tresure' and 'cherish'... i dun wan any regrets aor watsoever...
shall 'pia' all the way thru the weekends and give my best shot next week... after that, can see sunshine can rainbow le...
... seen through it and moved on.
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
4/13/2004 10:11:00 PM
Change new layout le!! was getting quite sick of the previous one... use so long liao... now, its time to change!! haha!! choose the final fanta bckground coz i guess im falling in love with the characters... actually was doing another layout... spend around 2 hours doing it but den i tink server problem so everything gone.. quite pissed off... (-_-) ... econs tutorial today, there's so little people.. less than 50% of the class turned up... i guess cos maybe its the last week so all cha bok.. kinda pity the teacher... will try my best to attend all tutorials this week cos its the last time seeing my classmates... thou im not reeli close with most of them, but to tell the truth, i'll be quite reluctant to separate with them...
exams will be up in a week's time and i realised there's lots of things i haven started on... must buck up soon... dun wanna take supp papers... sigh... fail my crim law test... hee.. my frenz oso fail but the weird thing is tt our answers are about the same... guess we got the conception of law wrong... buden, was reeli at cloud nine when i checked my MBS coursework... haha!! Got A!! was very surprised... now learning to love the subject as tt A gives me confidence for the exams...
dunno what the hack my caregrp leader doing... pple dun wanna go to class chalet still must give good reason as to why not going... **rolls eyes** ... its looks like she's making it compulsory or what... aniwae, pple from other classes are going and this doesnt look like a class chalet to me... she did ask if we mind pple from other classes joing... duh?! wat can we say?? if we say no, how's the outcome gonna be like? i comfirm not going de... last yr my fren n i oso dint go and i guess lots of my classmates who went last yr are planning not to go this yr.... was kinda pissed off by the whole organising... more ever, just cant click with those chinese girls in my caregrp.. maybe tts why tt racists thingy arose?? now i cnt be bothered with them... if you dun like me, then just leave my world.... no need to talk about me rite?? was reeli unhappy... cos she posted in the skool's caregrp's bulletin board the list of pple who didnt attend chalet last yr... hiak... my name was the first to be mentioned, followed by my fren's.... pple dun want to come what for force pple?? like what a chinese quote had said - Mian Qiang Shi Bu Hui You Xing Fu De... LOL!!
... seen through it and moved on.
Sunday, April 11, 2004
4/11/2004 10:33:00 PM
Somehow, I’m proud to announced that the weekends is coming to an end and haha!! I didn’t study at all!! Wonder what’s wrong with me but I wanna puke whenever I see books.. Books.. Books and more BOOKS!! … Exams will be coming up in a week’s time and yet, im still slacking… Nevertheless, must try to work hard for this final examinations.. After that can do anything I want for the holidays le…
Hmm.. Althou still feeling moody and low, but yet, I do feel so much better now… hope things will turn out brighter for me… (^.^ ) … I can’t wait for the exams to be over.. Now already thinking in my of the list of things im gonna do during the hols…lol!!
Recently, found myself crazy about twins.. Haha!! Was watching the ‘next station diva’ last nite and cool.. Charlene is so so so so so the KAWAII!! Feel like pinching her chubby cheeks!! (^.^)v … their music quite nice also but too bad I dun understand canto.. If not mi sure love their music de… Hope they can cut a Chinese album soon ba… looking forward to their new movies (twins effect 2) also… gotta start saving now cos during the hols, I bet there’ll be lots of my fav movies waiting for me… got the newly brothers lah… new police story lah… and lots more I think…
Phew… finally there’s something happy for me to blog about…
... seen through it and moved on.
Sunday, April 04, 2004
4/04/2004 11:01:00 PM
Was actually planning to study during the weekends but out the the blue, I’ve got no mood to study so yep… there goes my wasted weekends. During Friday was the Access Online test and b4 that, I was pretty worried that I would fail but in the end, mi got an A!! I’m quite contented with myself (^.^)v…. nowadays will usually meet Joyce to go to skool together and I felt kinda good toking and being with her… All thanks to the TP bus service cos without it, we wun have met… lol!!
Time is reeli flying at a speedy rate… the weekends are over so fast and tml would be a new week… I have no much comments for the upcoming new week … would be happy enuff if I mange to survive… now, I’m getting a little better thou there are still other stuffs bothering me… I was all the while wondering if I would pull through the exams cos I’ve been slacking behind my studies…. I’ve lots of things to catch up… But now, I’m already planning what to do after the exams le…
Just saw that channel 8 is going to telecast MG2 and when I saw F4 on the TV, memories of that day when I went to chase F4 with my frenz came flashing back in my mind… I recalled that I was feeling so happy… Those days on secondary times… those days b4 I came TP were then most innocent and carefree one despite those stress… In here, I felt pressurized and the fakeness in people… Sometimes when they smile, it makes me wondered if they’re really smiling…. I can’t help but feel that there are people out there to attack me… to hurt me… I loathed this kinda feeling…
My care group is organizing the chalet but I think I wun go, just like last yr, I dint turn up too…. I’m not reeli close to my caregroup people but nevertheless, I wun take the initiative to try to click along with them….. Not close means not close… why make such the effort to try clicking on with them?? Sometimes, I rather be alone thou it can be quite scary to be lonely…
My sis was telling me today that sometimes when she see me, she think I quite pitiful… I was like… why? She was saying that I dun seem to have a purpose in life… I seem to be spending my days without a goal…. I started to think, what she say was correct… I could see that people around me have ambitions or at least, they have an idea what they want to achieve in life but for me, there’s none…
Perhaps, I knew what I want in life and I’ve a goal in life but yet, people’ll look down on me or perhaps mock me that I’m thinking too much… Till today, that incident still bothers me much… it makes me wonder if I could ever make it big in life. I’ve found what I want to achieve in my life. But I can’t find the path that ‘ll lead me to my goals… my life seemed to be blocked by thick walls, obstructing me from reaching my dreams…
Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror and I reeli hate myself… but for now, I’m not going to care about what others though of me and what others wants me to be… I want to be who I am. Not what others expect me to be. I live for myself, not for the sake of what others wants me to do. I’ve learned that I should forgive and forget those people in the past that had hurt me be it intentional or unintentional. I always forgive but I wun forget. As for now, I would learn to forget.
Happiness is not how much things you have in life…. Rather, its how much you could forgive and forget unhappy things…
... seen through it and moved on.
Thursday, April 01, 2004
4/01/2004 01:39:00 PM
Had been feeling rather moody and low since last few weeks and just when I was almost breaking down but still trying to hang on, my dear friends Branda, Lester and Huimin actually came to my house with a cake. I was completely stunned to see Branda at my door when I answered it but yet, I really appreciated the time and effort they took to cheer Huimin and me up. Thanks a lot guys!! Huimin had to even rushed down from school to my house that was pretty far away.
When they’re in the house as we cut the cake and laughter filled the place, I realize that after all, I am not alone at all… there are still many people who care for me. Perhaps I should continue hanging on. This is just a trivial test that God has to me. Now, sometimes will meet Joyce during morning to go to school together and we would relate to each other the parts and parcels or difficulties we’re facing on life now. I realized that in my class, there’s reeli no real people I can totally relate all my problems to… whatever I tell them is only the very surface. Anyway, they never seems to care either… Perhaps, it just that they would never understand. I get to understand and yearned that if time could traveled back, I would further cherish those lhappy times I had with my frenz in lyss.
How odd this could get… but I knew things would never be the same again… there’s no way I can turn back time… There always people saying “if only I could… I won’t have…� or “if only I didn’t do this at the first place….� Or even “if I could turn back time… I would have…�…. But then to think again, if all these ‘ifs’ are possible, if one can do things again or to turn back time, then there wun be this things known as ‘cherish’…
Each time I saw him on msn, I wanted to talk to him or perhaps, always have this silly thinking that he will popped up and say ‘hi’ but I knew I shouldn’t be thinking too much… all these are just too impossible… Now what I must do is to get all things done properly, focus in my upcoming examinations and also, my frenz out there… to bring them out of their misery… thou I don’t know how should I but still, I would if they need my help…
I wonder what’s happening to my grp members… they seemed to be loathing me… Am I too sensitive?? No I dun think I am… I wanted to contribute but its seems that she wants to do everything herself and in the end, complained that we are slacking, making us feel bad… what’s the fault of always wanting to have a grp meeting n only informing me at the last minute??… Duh… what the heck?? Its not as if im a free bird 24/7… I’ve my own schedules too… I felt dangerous among them cos they might be smiling at you but u’ll never know if they are stabbing at your backs… Still, there’s also someone here I could laugh and chat with…
... seen through it and moved on.
