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Wednesday, September 24, 2003
9/24/2003 11:09:00 PM
Dear Father and Jesus Christ,
I am here to pray to you� yes Father, Emilyn is now praying to Father and Jesus through the blog. Father, I understand that nothing in this world lasts forever. But please, please don�t take Si Er�s mum away from her. Let her live happily and healthily in this beautiful world. I can understand the pain of losing someone you truly love and I really hope that Father will not take Si Er�s mother away. I know that a lot of people are praying to you now but Father, I know that you can hear me and my friend�s prayers. We trust you and we love you. You send friends and families as a way of taking care of us and even words are too way beyond to show how grateful we are to you. I know that you can take them away anytime. I understand that nothing in this world will go on forever, things are bound to come to an end one day. But Father, please not let it be so soon. not this time where so many bad things are happening around. We really need our friends and kins as a form of support. We can�t afford to lose them. Once again Dear Father, a zillion please. please let Si Er�s mother live. I am not asking much but just don�t take her away.
Dear Father, in return, I promise you that I will be a good girl and not make my parents worry. I promise you that I will treasure and care for the ones beside me. I promise to try my very best to forgive those people who had once offended me or hurt me. I promise you that one of the days, I will go to the church. Although I don�t go to churches, but Dear Father, deep down inside me, I respected you a lot and I had always been praying to you. I can feel your existence and that you are always watching over me. So Dear Father and Jesus Christ, before I say goodbye to you, I once again wished that my friends� and my prayers will be answered. Please don�t take Si Er�s mother away
Thank you Dear Father and Jesus Christ. Thanks a million, a billion a zillion. Amen.
End Of Blog Song � Amazing Grace.
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Tuesday, September 23, 2003
9/23/2003 07:10:00 PM
When you love someone beacase he is good looking,
that's not love, but a crush...
When you love someone becase he is talented,
That's not love, its admiration...
When you love someone because he cares for you,
That's not love, its friendship...
When you love someone because he loves you,
Thats not love, its repayment...
When you love someone becase he can't live without you,
That's not love,it's charity.
However....
When you don't know why you love someone...
That's love...
We don't need a reason to love...
When he is happy,
you want to share his joy...
When he is down,
you want to remove his sorrows...
When he needs you...
You are always there for him...
When he don't, you still stay by his side...
When he makes you happy,
you feel blissed with joy...
When he makes you cry,
you are afraid he will leave you...
When he makes you angry ,
you ignore him...
But deep inside your heart...
you get upset,
you are afraid that that's the end...
You feared that he will not bother you...
You feared that you will lose him..
However...
Deep inside, you had forgiven him...
Yes... That's LOVE...
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9/23/2003 07:07:00 PM
Today is Shikin’s bdae . Hereby, wish her a happy birthday and may all her wishes cum true!! Shikin!! Happy 17th bdae!!!
PS: Hahahaha… sumtin happen todae.. damm funny to me… will blog abt it nxt time.. now too lazy to recall…
End of blog song- Happy Birthday
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Sunday, September 21, 2003
9/21/2003 11:39:00 PM
Life is only travelled once. All of us know that. Youth also happens only once in our life. Once its gone.. we can never turn back time.
Youth is full of life and always the days worth remembering. It’s the days we dun really have big worries and burdens in life. It is the most wonderful chapters of life. During that period of time, we laugh happily with our frenz, sing along and play together.
Youth is exciting; yet dangerous coz important decisions are made to determine the next part of our life. It is also the time when we are not tied down… we are carefree to do what we want.
We will notice that as we gradually step into the adulthood, we are slowly taking up greater responsibilities. Whatever we do not only affects us, but also the people around us. We get to see the real ugly side of people when we work. We no longer deal with simple situations. We must learn to be independent. Life isn’t so carefree. We must always think of our parents before doing anything rash… we need to look after them.
Therefore, I will cherish the rest of my teenage life… I still have 4 years to go before my independence day… I will live these remaining 4 years of teenage life to the fullest. I will live it happy. 4 years is not long… time flies. I must complete the youth chapter of my life with a “happily ever after�. This will ease my steps into the adulthood. Coz if I’m unable to do so, there will be more heartaches in the future.
End Of Blog Song- I’ve never been to me By SHE
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Saturday, September 20, 2003
9/20/2003 04:04:00 PM
Yo man people!! I’m back!! As I was saying, yesterday was my airport camp trip… hmmm quite fun. Celine, Lester, Branda and me kept chatting about the past in our secondary school and we had fun laughing. We buy a lotz of snacks and bread from the supermarket in case we are hungry at night. Haha, in the end, we couldn’t finish them and still left a lot!!
Celine and I dare not go to the toilet and we kept scaring ourselves by saying got ghosts or Ju-On. Celine was so frightened that she beat me until my arm red!! We also had fun riding on the trolley and playing all the stupid games we created. Like, we must use our legs to carry the litterbin all those stuffs. Lame but fun. Later, we did some studying and after that play again. We sing songs and crack lame jokes.
Then, except for Branda, the 3 of us take turns for stomachaches. Celine went to the toilet pang sai at nite for a few times. Later during about 5am, the 3 of them are sleeping and I play Branda’s handphone ringtones for them as lullaby. I dun feel at all sleepy coz I drank 2 bottles of coffee. During morning, we went to the foodcourt to eat and we chatted about the tuition times. How we got coning from Miss Ng all those stuffs. After that, its my turn and Lester’s to get stomachache. We went do our business. Celine went home first as she got to teach tution at 12pm. The rest of us went to Coffee Bean. Haha… Branda and I drank mocha while Lester I dunno wat shit he ordered. At around 10plus, we took taxi home. I slept till 2 plus todae. I had juz updated my storis which I hadn’t being doing so for this week. Okie, I gtg now. DingDong!!
End Of Blog Song – Ni Ting De Dao By Jay.
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Thursday, September 18, 2003
9/18/2003 03:47:00 PM
“Oh God, I dun need a lot of frenz as long as the real ones stay beside me when I need them…� This was a heart-warming sms I recieved from a fren of mine. Guys!! Wat are you views of this message?? For me, I find tt it is totally true. What I need is not many frenz, but frenz who are true and sincere. I am glad tt in my chapters of life, I got to knw lotz of nice people. Frenz are God’s wae of looking after us and I’m thankful to him for sending me great frenz. Although at times, there might be some nasty people around but hey!! Come On!! There are always my frenz and family to make me continue on with things and ignore those people.
Imagine in a situation where you hv lotz of frenz but none gives you a helping hand when you badly need one. On the other hand, put urself into a situation where you’ve gt only one fren. But he or she is always there no matter you need him or her ornot. If it were me, I would definitely choose the 2nd situation. All one needs is someone who understands and cares. Someone who wun runs away or avoid you when you need them. If a fren of mine says :�If you are dying, take me with you, so tt you would not be alone in ur next journey.� In my point of view, if I die, I would not want my fren to tag along. I want them to continue with life. I will tell them “I will be waiting for you at the other side. Its not a forever goodbye. We will eventually meet one day.� Although I will feel sad to leave them, but I knew tt deep inside us, we wun forget each other. My route to heaven would never be lonely coz they will be always on my mind.
So Dear Father, please bless all of my friends and may any of the things they did wrong be forgiven. Paint their life with colors and bring sunshine to them. Last but not least, bless this person who is now reading my blog and may his or her life be filled will happiness and joys. Amen.
End Of Blog Song= Di Yi Shi Jian By F4
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Wednesday, September 17, 2003
9/17/2003 10:28:00 PM
Yo Everyone!! **Waves** I am bck to blog!! Erm Hem , I shall start wif wat happen to me yesterdae nite. As I had mentioned on my previous blog, I stayed up in my skool till as late as 7.30. We leave at ard 8.15 and by the time I reached home, its already 9. At 10, I watch CH5 True Files (Tcher sae muz watch) while hving dinner. I am so so so the tired. Cant stand it. After finish watching, I lied on the bed for a while and not long, I drift to sleep. I was finally awoken by my mum when she came home from work at 12.30. Heng ar!! She wake me up. If not, I might slp till morning liao. I realize tt I haven do my speech but I was too sleepy. My eyes cnt even open. I packed my bag and went to slp again.
Today, I woke up at 6 plus and get ready for skool. B4 lesson starts, I quickly prepare my speech. Heng ar.. nothing went wrong during my 2 presentations. Mr Ferlin sae I am doing fine but must relax. Yeahzzz, indeed I was nervous. I tried to cover tt by smiling. My frenz sae tt my face was red. HAHA. Especially during the solo presentation, I make lotz of mistakes and I just anyhow sae whatever crap tt runs into my mind. But overall, I find it okie. At least better than what I tot it would be.
However, during noon. I got a terrible gastric pain. I cant tahan and feel like vomiting. During POM lecture, I doze off and did nt take the notes cz I hv no strengh to write properly. My gastric was in pain. My frenzz sae tt I looked very sick and my eyes were red. Classmates beside me kept asking Im okay or not but I ignore them coz I was really feeling very nauseous. I feel tt if I talk, I might vomit so I just close my eyes. Yup, indeed, I felt like cryin coz its really pain and I cnt keep my eyes open. Watz worse is tt I did not bring my medicine. I feel like going home but I knew I cant coz later evening gt listening test.
Luckily during the listening test, I got better. The listening test was quite complicated coz we are being put into a difficult listening situation. The teacher would purposely talk fast, then slow, or changes the information he says. Then, we would have to take down important notes of what he saes,tis is to test our listening skills. At times, there would be noises which disrupts us frm listening and the teacher would talk in Singlish or in other strange accents. I hope I could pass this test.
Now, I am just back from tution. My gastric is still pain but it is better, much better. And I dunno wat happen. Maybe becoz stress coz todae I hv gt to do 2 presentations, then summore gt listening test and at nite muz teach tution...who wun be stress?? Im glad tt 2dae is finally over. I can relax a bit. Okie ppl, with that, I end my blog. Bye =)
End Of Blog Song = More Than Words By Energy
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Tuesday, September 16, 2003
9/16/2003 07:46:00 PM
Hey!! Can you guys believe it?? Its already 7.30 at nite and im still in school with my frenz!! Sigh… tired and sleepy.. im staying back in the com lab for research and for the presentation tml. Remember me saying tt I gt to do a solo presentation tml?? Kaozz I still got to do group presentation. Which means, I got to do 2 presentations tml~!!! Its as if I will be teaching the class tml HAHA. Guess I wun hv time to update my stories tonite. However, I have lots of fun during the research.. haha laugh here laugh there with my frenz on anything under the roof…I still need to study for the listening assignment tml. Come on! Tiz listening test is not tt kind we hv in secondary or primary skool!! Its so so so ,much complicated. Mind you. I had failed last time and tml is my retake. So, I must pass tml no matter what!=) I hope I can make it…
Juz now during CSA, I got back my mid term test results. Whoah… I fail leh… fail very badly.. fail until backside got fire… but I am not at all upset. Maybe it is because I already expected tt I will not pass. See?? I did not put in much effort so what rite do I have to be sad?? I have got no reasons to cry. Anywae, itz not like I had work hard but fail…
Okie, I will blog till here.. Will be back tml coz tml can relax a bit.. Bye!!!
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End of Blog Song = Qing Tian By Jay
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Monday, September 15, 2003
9/15/2003 04:50:00 PM
Hmm… I am now in the school computer lab blogging. Lessons has juz ended. Sigh.. just now our class make the L Com tutor angry. None of us in the class prepare the work and he sae that its meaningless for him to continue. He then walked out of the class. See?? The situation very awkward rite?? I felt kinda bad. Then, I am assigned to do a presentation alone on Wednesday. ALONE leh!! Come on!! You guys help me jiayou okie?? I reeli dunno wat shit and crap will I say but I will try my best to make the presentation as lively as possible.
Juz now during POM lesson, Mr Ng gave us back our results. I manage to pass but the results are below my expectations. I thought I could have done better. Nevertheless, I am not going to give up so easily!! I will continue trying till I get what I want =) Sigh… I guess this week iz gonna be another stressful one. There are so many presentations and work coming in at one shot. Gotta have energy to take all tiz.
Yesterday I watch the news on the TV and read the newspapers. Sobzzz… Toro reeli did not appear during the concert. I thought he will cum. Lotz of fanz are waiting for him. They cried. Niunai oso cried. So sad =(
And also recently, I had fallen in love with Skittles, the sour flavour. It is just so nice to take sour stuffs!!! Wun get tired of it!!!
End of blog song--> Yu Jian By Yan Zi
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Sunday, September 14, 2003
9/14/2003 08:55:00 PM
Come on!!! It is a Sunday nite but how cum all the TV programmes are dead boring???!!! None appeals to me. So, I had to cum and blog to pass time. Duh! Dun ask me go and study instead because I have no mood. More ever, weekends are not for studying.
Today I go and install the Starhub Internet starter kit then after that, I can still serve the internet but I cannot check mail nor can I sign into MSN to chat. Guys!!! I dunno what happen. I need your help!! Plz tell me what to do coz when I want to sign in the MSN, they put must state it is provided by what. I oso dunno watz that but I seriously need help. So, if you dun see me in MSN, it doesn’t mean tat I am not on the Internet. I am !! But I juz cant get in!!! Duh!!
Hee heee, juz now during the afternoon watch the Singapore music awards repeated to pass time instead of going Internet again. Hmmm I feel that I hadn’t done much tiz weekend except for blogging and typing stories. Other than that, I had accomplished practically nothing. Yah, and this afternoon, My PC hang again so I went to sleep for about 30mins. When I wake up, it is still hanged!! Why must even a PC play games with me?? Now, I dun even dare type any project work coz in case it hangs, I will really cry!!! ***Sobzzzzzz***** Sigh… I called Nisha just now to ask her about sch work. She is sick and not feeling well. Hope she gets well soon =)
That iz all for tonite. What?? Not enuff??? Come On!! I dun want to be so long winded!! =)
Song of the nite- Yong Yuan Bu Shuo Zai Jian by Energy. 8.48pm
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9/14/2003 03:39:00 AM
Juz now Celine cum my house and we do the blog template together!! HAHA We have lotz of fun. Then, my computer hang again. Haha!! She pronounces the word ^hang^ as ^hen^ ahahahaha Wa Chio Ka peng!!! (Laugh until pengzz in Hokkien) She think she zaizai huh!! **Grinzzz** Then, while reading fanfics together with her, I oso pronounced a word wrongly. I pronounced ^Opposite^ as ^Oppochit^ coz I tongue tied. This time her turn to laugh lor. She laughs until cry leh!! But I pronounce wrong can be forgiven coz I am a zaizai fan. =)
Now got no mood to sleep. Come on!! It’s a waste to sleep during weekendz!! There are juz so many better things to do, which I cant do during weekdays, due to school work. Hmmm now really faling in love with Energy .I am now listening to their first album. They are so hip and so hop!!! Milk can do head break dance. Toro can write lyrics. Kunda the most cute. Ah Di has got the best vocal. Shu wei ar, I dunno what is good about him but erm he so so lah. Wonder how is their concert just now.I bet that the whole stadium muz be flooded with tears. Did Toro cum?? I gonna check the news tml.
I am moving house soon. My mother says we will be moving outta Pasir Ris around December. Will stay at my auntie house during the renovation of my new home. Wah!! I live second floor, so short but quite happy to move coz my sister will be cuming to stay with us in the new home!! Like that then can see each other everyday!! =)
Okie lah, todae blog till here. Come on!! I got nothing to type already!! =)
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Saturday, September 13, 2003
9/13/2003 06:58:00 PM
Know what?? Yesterday night can be considered the most sway nite I had!! I was happily typing my stories when my computer suddenly hang!! @##$#%@& lah!! I had to restart it again and retype my chapter!! This has being repeating many times last night until today!! All the while Im typing the same chapter and I nearly cried coz my computer every time hang and I cannot do the typing properly and must restart the PC. Its like there are lots of inspirations running in my mind but I just cant type as my computer hang and I have to retype the chapter again and again!! ****Burning with anger**** it wastes lotz of my time and energy. I dunno what to do and I prayed very hard to God. I prayed to him to tell the computer to stop playing games with me. In the end, it work!! Although still got problem but at least not so serious. Thanks God and Jesus!! I know that I should not ask too much from them thus, all I want is my computer to operate smoothly so that I dun hv to retype anything.
Also yesterday nite, I dunno why but I suddenly have mood swings again. Its like I just felt unhappy and vexed suddenly. But that was before I start my computer so I knw it has nothing to do with my computer hanging. I hate tiz feeling. Sometimes, I would feel unhappy or sad or maybe angry all of the sudden. Then, the one who is in front of me have to watch out coz I will scold that person or be very impatient with him or her even if tt person did not offend me. HAHAHA this person usually happens to be my father. Who tell him so sway, everytime I kana mood swings he talks to me or is in front of me. I really hope I dun get mood swings anymore coz it is a horrible feeling and I would offend people unknowingly. My sub conscious tells me to go for counseling but I think I am normal. HAHA. Sometimes, I oso dunno why but I will bang the door hard or shout like mad at home. My mum says im crazy and ask if I need to go Woodbridge for treatment. I guess im just stress lah, so I shout and slam doors.
Wah!! Now then I realize that I had loads of work to do during the weekends. I hope that I will pass my listen assignment, which I have to retake next Wed. Tonight is also Energy concert. They sae Toro might cum and join in halfway as a form of rejoining the group and giving their fanz a surprise. I hope that happens!!! Energy, JiaYou!! Wo Men Yong Yuan Bu Shuo Zai Jian!!
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Friday, September 12, 2003
9/12/2003 04:11:00 PM
I am now in the school legal lab. The teacher wants us to do online questions but I am not gonna give a care about it because I want to blog!! Haha- No one can stop me from doing what I wanna do now except for myself!! **HEE HEE**
Hey! I am not rebellious or what. I just had no idea what the hack should I type to post on the online questions. So, I might as well blog first. Anywae, I bet lotz of my classmates should be doing what they want now and serving their own webbies except for those guai kia
Wah piang!! I really dont like my group. They every time change places and time for meetings and only inform me during the last minute. Its like I don’t feel respected and that I felt like a dog! However, they also got their good points so as a very gracious girl, **Er hem** **Clears throat** I forgive them. You know, Father Lord says that we must learn to forgive and forget. Like that then can live happier. However, it is sometimes very hard to forgive and forget. Maybe one can forgive but it is impossible to forget. But we must understand that no human in this world is perfect. Even George Bush has his weakness. That’s why till now he still cant get Osama.
Woo hoo!! This week is finally gonna be over!! WEEKENDS!! I LOVE IT!! Cant wait till at night to update my stories and to do anything I want!! I want to watch the pirates of the Caribbean this weekends!! Who want to watch with me??!!! Siew wen, you wanna watch tt movie oso rite? I cant help but find that Orlando Bloom very shuai!! Maybe not Shuai lah, but he is COOL!! Okie end my blog here B4 the teacher finds out that I am not doing my work!! Weekends!! I’m coming!!
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Tuesday, September 09, 2003
9/09/2003 05:31:00 PM
I am now in the campus using the lab computer to blog. Juz now i presented my CSA website in front of the class. ***Phew** Lucky nothing went wrong...
I reeli look forward to the weekends so i can rest and meet up my frenzzzz****Miss them*** Wonder how they look like now...
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Sunday, September 07, 2003
9/07/2003 10:57:00 PM
Juz finish watching the jin qu jiang. WAHLAO! They cut off so many scenes! Energy haven finish singing they cut off liao ***Angry** Kunda very handsome! I love the way he style his hair during the music awards. He is cool man!**Now abit crazy over Kunda liao** NiuNai oso not bad. Celine likes his kind of hairstyle. Juz nw tok to her over the phone while watching. We were dicussing about the celebrities and she told me tt she like the hairstyle which NiuNai, David Tao and Jay have.
But somehow, I felt strange without Toro. **Miss him** Wonder how is he doing now. I hope God will watch over him and Energy. To tell the truth, I am not as crazy over F4 now. Although see them will get excited, but I wun get crazy. I oso dunno why. Huimin say it is becoz I grow up liao. I do agree with her. However, I oso very confused coz I now kinda like Energy. Their songs very nice. Love their Mou Nian Mou Yue Mou Yi Tian. The lyrics very touching****Sob Sob****
Hiazzzzz tml sch reopen liao. How I wish can holidae some more cz I did not reeli take a break tiz week. I kinda nervous for tml lessons. Dunno wat will happen as so long dint see the tutor liao.
PS:
F4 RuLeZ and
EnErGy RaWkS
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9/07/2003 04:07:00 AM
Its now 3.51am but I still not feeling sleepy at all!! Full of energy man!! **Jumps into the air** Just now the website server down so cannot blog but lucky now can liao.
WoW! I'm so glad that ENERGY got win award at the Spore Music Awards!! They are great man!! However I find that they should win the gold award for the best newcomer instead of bronze. Come on!! They are just so talented!! The most sha group in the showbiz.
HAHAHA 5566 won nothing!!! Huo gai ar!! Okie, dun waste time and space to type about them.
On the other hand, Im so sad that Toro wun be attending the concert in Singapore.. **Sobz Sobz** Why like that.. Sigh.. Energy cant do without any member missing. All play an important role. I do hope that Toro wun leave the group but somehow from the state of the problem now, it seems impossible. Nevertheless, I will still hold high hopes that he would not leave. I believe in miracles. And NiuNai got promise the fans b4 that Energy will always be energy. Energy!! Wo men yong yuan zi chi ni!!! **Raises and waves the Energy cardboard***
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Friday, September 05, 2003
9/05/2003 09:43:00 PM
Todae I went to visit the Supreme Court. The visit so-so lar, not as interesting as what I tot its gonna be. Reali cant imagine I next time work in law firm or there. Mi dun like the feeling there, I felt so tied down. Yucks, I tak bulek tahan, feel like going home.
Then, there is a part where we were shown some photos of criminal cases where the police took pix of the dead victims, either murdered or being killed by accident. OMG!! Its so brutal and gruesome!!! ****PUKES**** Most corpses inner intestines and brains were spilling out!!! *****PUKES AGAIN***** Maybe words were too way beyond to describes how it looked like . Some bodies were way beyond recognition. The hair on my cheeks stands as I look at the photos and I felt like vomiting. Sigh.. now I hungry but no mood to eat? will think of the photos. I scared tonite cannot slp.
Then after that, we attended a case hearing. Wahpiang!! Its totally boring!!! The lawyers and the jugde were so so so the blurr!!! Its different from wat I saw on Drama series!!! Yeeeeee, but I heard tt all trails are like tt wan.. ***Shakes head**** Sigh..
After the whole thing ended, I went for lunch and shopping with Nisha and Shikin. Hee, Shikin and I each bought a pendant of our horoscope and after Nisha went home, we shop around again. Have Lots of Fun browsing thru the toys and dolls!!! =)
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Thursday, September 04, 2003
9/04/2003 11:08:00 PM
Holidays!!!
Everybody goes on about holidays as thou they were the best gift from heaven. For me, Hols = No HoLs
Almost everyday muz go bck campus do web project till at night. I remembered doing from 9am till 7plus at nite yesterdaE!!! OW?.. My back and fingers aches after all the typing? Then mi straight away go teach tuition after tt.. Reach home at ard 9.45pm. ****Exhausted****
As got lots of things to do, I drink Nescafe for some ENERGY. I stay up till 6plus in the morning to do research!!! And oso to update my stories and create blog.. Only slp at about 7 this morning ****Break record liao**
Then during afternoon, Siew Wen accompany me to buy office shoes. I tml need to go Supreme Court must wear it and oso dress formal?
I look so Aunty wearing the office clothes or to put it nicer, I look mature wearing formal with tt prada (fake one) bag. I hope the visit to the supreme court will be memorable. I heard from some of my classmates tat got case hearing? Okie? todae blog till here =)
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